Artist Unleashed

2006-12-21T05:26:00.000-08:00

Please come visit me at my new blog... Just click here!

A Change Is in the Air...

2006-11-03T05:05:00.000-08:00

First off, thank you to everyone who posted "welcome home" comments. That made for a happy return to computer-land! And thank you to everyone who asked if I would post a few pics. of my purchases. Duh! Now why didn't I think of that?!? I'll be happy to do that next week.

Today, however, I'd like to share my brand new blog with you. It can be found here. I'd so love to have you all come over for a visit. If I were able, I'd have coffee and a delicious spread of scones waiting. But alas, I cannot. So instead, I've posted a little contest on the new blog to get the ball rolling. My daily posts from now on will be made there as well.

Email me if you have any trouble whatsoever, okay? Otherwise, I'll see you soon!

You're Going to Kill Me!

2006-11-02T07:01:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh... You're going to kill me.

I'm back from my trip to SF (obviously), and we had an INCREDIBLE time! I may as well just own up to it right now.... Here goes... There are NO pictures. Not a one. I'm sorry. Every time we set out from the hotel, neither one of us wanted to lug the camera along with coats, sunglasses, lipstick, wallets, kleenex, and our purchases. We walked our socks off and took the bus practically everywhere. So I'm here to beg for forgiveness.

I can, however, give you a good narrative...

Boy, did we do a lot! We visited the Castro District and went to Haight-Ashbury. We discovered this charming little section of town called Cow Hollow. We were South of Market, in China Town quite a lot, and in North Beach. We stayed at the Hyatt just off of Union Square, so we spent a great deal of time there as well.

We saw "Chicago" starring Huey Lewis, which was amazing. The dancing and singing were just top-notch, although Huey himself was a little disappointing. (I expected that he might not shine in the dance/act department, but in my opinion, his singing wasn't quite as incredible as the rest of the company either.) We ate at our favorite Italian restaurant twice: Mona Lisa. We spent Halloween afternoon in Cow Hollow because the shops there were hosting "trick-or-treating" for the kids. That was just too cute. Many people brought their dogs all dressed up as well.

As for art stores, I visited General Bead and Beyond Beads - both just the bomb. We went to FLAX and I indulged in paper galore. We went to Kozo Arts, which was okay. They were really expensive and were basically just about book-making. I went to Britex Fabrics for the first time. Oh my GOODNESS! What a fabric artist's dream! They have four - count 'em FOUR - floors of fabric and trim! I so wish I lived near there! And I went to my favorite yarn store twice. That's called "Art Fibers".

We did the usual shopping at Macy's and all the stores on and near Union Square. That was mostly window-shopping though. I did really well with spending, actually. Maybe I'm getting more selective? One can only hope.

All in all, our trip was a blur of sleeping, eating, and walking about town. We must be seriously sleep-deprived at home because we took no less than 2-3 naps per day. And that's in addition to a full night's sleep. The Hyatt invested in these new beds since the last time we visited. That bed was, beyond a doubt, the most comfortable bed I've ever slept in at a hotel. Maybe we slept so much because we were so tired from walking and so full from eating? I'm not complaining, though!

I realize this post is sortof a jumble. I guess I'm just trying to get it all down as quickly as I can. Steve's still off the remainder of the week, so I'm still in "vacation mode". I will post the surprise and contest I've been hyping tomorrow though, so check back Friday!

San Francisco, Here I Come!

2006-10-27T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hiya! (That's my new greeting as of late... I'm not sure where it came from.)

Steve and I are leaving tomorrow for San Francisco, and I can't wait. We're flying this time, which will be a bit of a luxury compared with the usual 5-hour drive. It will also be nice to side-step those $30/night parking rates. Geez!

I've lined up no less than 20 art, bead, and fiber shops for us to visit. Steve is a good sport about it all. But like I keep telling you, if it weren't for me, what would he do with his time?!? We've got tickets to see "Chicago" on Sunday night. Huey Lewis is in the starring role, so that should be fun.

Today I'm just rattling around trying to do all of those last minute things that seem to pop up right before you leave. And of course, I'm doing yet another couple of loads of laundry. I don't understand how two people can have so much? Isn't it weird how in the days right before you leave to go on vacation, it suddenly seems like you've never needed one more?

Yesterday I was able to phone the Arizona state government office of something or other. After 4 calls to computer-land, I was finally able to find a real person and they gave me my new tax license number over the phone! This means I can mail in my completed application for Arizona's "The Great Fair" before I leave. Yea for the state government over there! I can't believe it actually worked out.

I'll be back online Thursday of next week. Be sure to tune back in because Friday I'll be announcing a little contest. Ahhh, the suspense....

Have a terrific week, everyone!

Movin' Right Along

2006-10-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

You may laugh, but yesterday I went out and bought the book "The Prestige"! Okay, laugh... I'm laughing at myself. I just really, really liked this movie.

Here's a picture of the Day of the Dead swap piece I received from Suz this week. Believe me, the colors in this picture are lousy. The green is a bright lime green and all of the other colors are brighter and more intense as well. Didn't she do a terrific job decorating?!?! And she made those sugar skulls from scratch. It was all I could do to keep Bentley from licking it to death. (Pun intended... It's going to be one of those posts!)

As I mentioned before, I've given myself permission to take a break from art this week and just work on myself. This has been wonderful for three reasons:
1. I'm looking better, if I do say so myself.
2. It makes me long for art, which is a great feeling when it is possible to get "burnt out" from time to time.
3. I'm plowing through all this other "business" stuff that's been pushed to the side for sooooo long.

An example in support of #3 is that yesterday, I devoted nearly the entire day to updating my website. The changes took me a long time, but they're finished! Most notably, I got all of my fabric collages on my "For Sale" pages. They're here, if you're interested in taking a look. (Be kind because those are sure hard to photograph well!) I also removed everything that has sold. It feels so good to be making such progress on this housecleaning-type stuff!

"The Prestige"

2006-10-25T05:10:00.000-07:00

Okay... this is probably the best movie I've seen in years. It's called "The Prestige". (Sorry for the tiny photo.) But oh my goodness, it's so well-crafted and intelligent! The creators and actors take you on an incredible ride. And they keep you guessing until the very end. It's worth seeing in a theatre if you're at all inclined. Steve and I saw it this weekend and we just loved it. (And you know this is true because I don't normally write about the movies we see on my blog!)

Finally Finished!

2006-10-24T05:42:00.000-07:00

The incredibly talented and equally generous Mary Stanley taught me how to rug hook. This is my first attempt. I started it... about a year ago now? Geez. At least I finished it, though. I turned it into a little pillow, and now it belongs to my friend Edina. If you want to see some "real" hooking that will just knock your socks off with it's creativity and originality, do take a gander at Mary's blog.

This is the week before we leave for San Francisco, so I've given myself the week "off," so to speak. I'm keeping up with my computer work, but most of the week I've devoted to just getting ready. Of course, I need to do the usual things like clean, pack, laundry, errands, etc. But I also need to do loooonnngg-overdo self maintenance. Yesterday I did my highlights and today I will do the cut. Tomorrow is fingernails and toenails. Thursday is brow waxing. (I used to be a hair stylist, by the way... So don't worry, I'm a professional! It just takes me 5 times as long when working on myself.)

I did change the header on my website yesterday. I'm trying to get a more uniform feel amongst my site, my blog, etsy, and my business cards. There's always something to be done, isn't there...???

"The Dance"

2006-10-22T15:27:00.000-07:00

Here is a photo of my latest painting. I finished it last week, and it's entitled "The Dance". It measures 12"x16".

This detail shows, what I hope is the romance of a couple dancing under the moonlight.

And here's a close-up of three cathedral windows. I had painted pretty much everything, including the figure in the window, but I just couldn't rest. For four solid days, I kept pacing past this piece. I couldn't shake the feeling that there needed to be a noose. Now, I'm not sure where that sinister desire comes from... Maybe I don't want to know? But at the end of four days, I couldn't ignore that relentless urge any longer, so the noose was added, and "The Dance" then somehow seemed complete.

I will admit that I think the addition of that deadly bit of rope makes for a much more interesting story between these three figures. And as Steve points out, it's not something that the viewer realizes is there until he/she inspects the work more closely. One of the music collage pieces in the upper left has text which reads "Oh dear!" Pure serendipity, but isn't that perfect?!?!

On another note, what wonderful comments I received in response to Friday's post about rejection! You know, I was thinking about this all weekend. It seems to me that it was actually harder for me to publicly write about being rejected than it was for me to get the rejection in the first place! No matter how strong you are, announcing it to the world is a hard one to swallow. It would have been so easy to quietly file my letter in the trash and pretend like it never happened. No one would ever know.

But you all lifted me up and made it okay. Some of you have faced your own rejections and some of you haven't reached that particular bump in the road. But all of you expressed your gratitude and support at my having written that particular post. If I was able to inspire even one person to "keep on truckin'" regardless, then that means the world to me! I promise you that I will always write honestly about both the good and the bad. You've shown me that it's okay to be human. It's odd to feel so humbled and so safe in the context of this giant world we call the internet. How can I possibly thank you all for that?

Gesso Is My Friend

2006-10-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

Remember I told you yesterday about those two collages for "Ripped and Torn" that were off to a slow start? Well, by the end of the day, here's what they look like. Yup... that's right... gessoed right over them. If you look closely, you'll see the culprit right behind the canvas. I added a touch of yellow paint and scraped around a bit with a plastic card so that a tad of the original paint/collage work still shows through. Makes me feel like it wasn't all for naught. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it!

In an effort to always write honestly, I have to report that I got rejected from the "Fiberarts" show in Sebastapol yesterday. I had submitted photos of one of my "With Love" fabric collages for their consideration. But in that same vein of honesty, I will tell you that it truly is getting easier and easier. My friend MaryBeth laughed with me the other day on the phone when I told her "I'm emboldened by my rejection." And it's the truth. The more I get rejected, the more I feel like submitting. I've had enough experience to accept that something will get accepted somewhere along the line. For me, I find great comfort in the knowledge that I've found my place in this world. Sure, I have insecurities like all artists do, but I'm never insecure about how much I love what I'm doing. And that, I'm convinced, is the most precious gift of all - rejection or not!

Also in that same batch of mail, I received the most WONDERFUL charm bracelet from the most AMAZING group of women. This bracelet is a result of a swap I participated in, hosted by Ruth Rae. Here's a photo of the finished bracelet, which Ruth designed and assembled herself.

She even created a blog about the entire thing, complete with instructions from every participant. The artwork is amazing! And truly, it's one of the best swaps I've had the honor of being a part of. Thank you, ladies!

I actually have a few charms left over, which I'm going to be giving away in a contest in a couple of weeks. Stay tuned for the details... especially if you didn't have a chance to participate in this swap!

Have a terrific weekend, everyone!

This is Bentley

2006-10-19T06:57:00.000-07:00

I felt like you needed a picture today... so you get Bentley. This is "his" chair. It's where he spends most of the day. If he hears a noise worthy of woofing at, nine times out of ten, he won't even get out of his chair for that. He woofs right from his seat. Sometimes when we come home from being out and about, he won't even leave his beloved perch to say hello. Bentley loves his chair.

I usually write my blog posts pretty early in the morning. Steve gets up for work at 4:30 am. He's out the door by 5:00 am and I do my computer work and/or work out. It's still very dark. I share this with you because if I am to post new photos of my work for you, I need to remember to take them the day before, when I have adequate light. That doesn't always happen. So... today you get Bentley!

I did get my Tax License form for AZ filled out yesterday. It will go in the mail this morning. I'm pretty positive I won't have the number I need for my application to Arizona's "The Great Fair" by the time I need to mail that in, which is next Friday. I plan to call them towards the end of next week, but I may just have to write "in process" on my app. Oh well, that's the best I can do. At least once I get it, I'll have it. Those permits - they're called something different in every state, but they essentially give you the legal right to sell - are good for life. Unless you do something bad, of course. Imagine that... the government not taking the opportunity to charge you again every year. I'm not complaining!

I finished a piece yesterday afternoon called "The Dance". I'll photograph it this weekend and have pictures for you early next week. Today I need to get going on two pieces that are off to a slow start. The Collage Artists of America (an LA-based group I belong to) is having a call for entries for their upcoming fall/winter show. The theme is "Ripped and Torn". I may have mentioned it before? I honestly can't remember. But the judging is coming up in mid-November, so I need to get crackin' on that.

Check Out This Artist!

2006-10-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

So... I went to this mini art fair in Pasadena on Sunday. While there, I stumbled upon this truly amazing artist. Her name is Jaime Zollars and her website is here. I find her work to be a delight - the composition and colors will immediately catch your eye. But then as you look further, you're drawn into the details of her slightly scary world. If you click on the "news" button, you'll see even more of her work. And if you click on "fun", you'll find an incredible step-by-step look at her process. I say "incredible" because I would never in a million years have guessed that she uses so much collage in her creations. It was a pleasure to find her.

Here it is Wednesday, and I'm still writing about the weekend! I dabbled a little with my paints yesterday, but didn't accomplish much. I worked on the computer a fair amount and actually... I'll admit it... watched a movie! Then Steve came home and we watched another movie last night after I made dinner. I guess yesterday was a "couch potato" day.

The second movie, "Take the Lead", had a great line in it. I'm paraphrasing, but it went something like this: "Not everyone gets what they want in life. But those who do are those who step up and go after it." Isn't that just so true?!?

Happy Anniversary, Honey!

2006-10-17T05:08:00.000-07:00

Seven years ago today, I married the man of my dreams...

I'll never forget the way you looked at me when you saw me for the first time at the top of the aisle. The memory of your expression makes my eyes begin to well up even now. Reciting the vows we wrote to one another, sharing just a few private moments in the bridal cottage following the ceremony, feeling so safe in your arms while we danced to "I Can't Help Falling in Love", and escaping to the elegant Beverly Hills Hotel. The night was nothing short of a fairy tale. And my dreams haven't stopped coming true since that day.

I love you with everything that I am. Happy Anniversary, sweetheart.

And now back to our regularly scheduled programming...

Did I tell you...???

2006-10-16T06:23:00.000-07:00

Didn't I tell you I was a "book-aholic"?!?! I devoured my "Where Women Create" book this weekend. (Yeah, yeah, I know... so much for waiting to savor it on my trip, right?!?!) It was simply the best! I didn't expect it to get me thinking so much, which was a nice surprise.

It seems that there are two types of creators. (And this is my own conclusion after reading the pages and drooling over the pictures.) There are those who like minimalism, neatness, and order. Those people find inspiration when their work area is completely free of anything not relating to the task at hand. And then there are the other creators who thrive off of a sort of visual chaos. They need to see and be able to interact with their treasures... often all at once. Which type are you?

I, most certainly, am the latter. From time to time, I do put things in my studio away for the sake of cleanliness. But when I'm in the midst of a project, it's like a giant explosion went off. I used to feel bad about this... like a despondent child who couldn't follow simple rules such as "put your toys away when you are finished using them." But now I realize that's not true. The chaos and disorder are an integral part of my creative process. If things are shut away in a drawer, I forget about them entirely. I enjoy the intuitive dialogue that happens when my eyes feast on my treasures and a composition is built before I've even picked up the glue or paint. It is an interaction and a discourse that evolves entirely because of the mess.

I am so thrilled to finally give myself this simple permission. And moreover, I realize that my studio is not set up to support this creative "type". I really want to work on amassing decorative glass jars and containers where my found objects and ephemera can be displayed and seen. I want it housed, but out there. Do you know what I'm trying to say? Now I just need a bigger studio...

Here's the link the book again, in case you're interested...

Friday the 13th

2006-10-13T06:03:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy it's Friday the 13th! Lately, 13 has been my lucky number. (You may recall that I was accepted into the juried competition with the theme of "Lucky 13" AND my room at Artfest is #13.) So, I'm excited for the day to unfold...

I received two books from Amazon last night. I've only just had a chance to flip through their pages, but they seem really awesome! The first is "Where Women Create". It's a sumptuous look at the private studios of some of the most creative women. The way in which each has displayed her materials is truly inspirational. Even if you don't make art, you will appreciate the utter celebration of the beauty in "odds and ends". And of course, the illustrious Wendy Addison opens her "Theatre of Dreams" studio to us, which is one of the primary reasons I bought the book.

The second book I ordered was Sally Jean Alexander's new book entitled, "Pretty Little Things". It seems to be filled with a wide assortment of projects, most of them soldering-based in nature. (No surprise there, if you are familiar with Sally Jean's wonderful artwork.) I am on the verge of jumping into this world myself, and I think her writing will serve as a great tutorial to help me learn on my own. There are also photos of her studio as well. The photography is a feast, and it's all flavored with her signature turquoise.

I'm certainly a self-proclaimed "Book Addict", so I'm just thrilled to add these two to my collection. I'm hoping to take them with me on our trip at the end of the month. I always enjoy savoring the contents when I have no demands whatsoever on my time!

Have a terrific, happy, lucky day everyone! And a wonderful weekend, too!!

12 Days of Christmas Swap

2006-10-12T05:31:00.001-07:00

Does is seem like I'm a little too into the holidays perhaps a little too early this year???.... I think I'm worse than the malls! Anyway...

I'm participating in a swap called "The 12 Days of Christmas" hosted by the wonderful Lelainia. Each person is assigned a number, 1 through 12. All of the participants make 12 gifts and label them with our designated number. Then we send our handmade items to all of the other participants. On each of the 12 days before Christmas, we are to open one gift, in numerical order. Isn't this just the sweetest, most nostalgic idea? Anyway, since the gift itself needs to be a surprise, you're getting a picture of the outside. I'm putting them in the mail today.

My friend Edina posted a link to this website a while back. The artist, Catia Chien, just completely captured my imagination. I find her work both intriguing and beautifully haunting. Her art is just wonderful. Anyway, Catia's going to be showing at an art fair in Pasadena this weekend, which I have plans to drag Steve to. I simply cannot wait!

And last but not least, if you'd like some more inspiration and eye candy, please visit Pam Garrison's blog if you haven't already. Oh my goodness, her recent posts about her trip north sound like heaven on earth to me. I've made notes of her stops and have already informed Steve that we WILL be following in her footsteps at some point next year. The Alameda swap meet alone sounds worth the trip! Lucky for me, I have the sweetest, most supportive husband on the planet. But really, if it weren't for me, what would he do with his time?

Workin' Away...

2006-10-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

A while back, I posted about being published for the first time in Teesha Moore's Art & Life. I received more than a couple requests from people who didn't subscribe but still wanted to read my article. Well, better late than never, I developed a new page on my website yesterday. The entire article, "Life on the Edge: Building My Website" is published there. You can get to it by going to the home page and clicking on the bottom text that says, "Click here to see..." Thank you to everyone who showed such an interest!

In the same zine, Art & Life, Diana Trout writes an amazing piece pretty much each and every issue. Her writing is always inspiring and her work and website are worth checking out. This month she highlights the artist Heide Murray. I just adore her felted creatures - they have such character!

Artwise, I did manage to finish these two journals yesterday. They are two of five which will be a part of The Folk Tree Collection's "Hearts and Flowers" show in January-February.

And I guess that's about it. I spent a great deal of yesterday researching outdoor art fairs for the 2007 season. The day just sortof slipped by me. Those applications are pretty intensive... and each one demands something more specific and different than the last. I'm happy I'm getting a good jump on things, though!

"Christmas Blessings" on Etsy

2006-10-10T05:27:00.000-07:00

Good Morning!

I've got my "Christmas Blessings" fabric collages listed in my Etsy Shop now. If you're interested, or you know someone who may be interested, please send them my way. They would make really lovely gifts for the holidays. Here's a picture of what they look like.

And a big thank you to all of you who posted such wonderful comments of praise and support for "A Measure of Peace". I may not be able to respond to each and every one of you, but I read everything you have to say and it lifts me up. Again, I humbly thank you!!

I worked a lot yesterday on some new journals for the Folk Tree Collection's show in January. They're coming along. I'll post photos of those once I'm finished.

I ended up devoting a lot of time yesterday to various computer and paperwork tasks. Nothing too exciting, but necessary, nonetheless. I really am finding the need to get Excel... and a laptop, for that matter. Why does everything on our wish list as adults cost so much more than when we were young? Have you ever noticed that?

Cats and Birds

2006-10-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

Well... how do I put this? There's no real way to save face here. Apparently, Montgomery is a Master Thespian. I was dead wrong. My only defense is that I am a loving and slightly crazy-paranoid mother? I phoned the vet on Friday and was able to speak directly with him. Montgomery never had an IV for his surgery. The anesthetic was through injection which his doctor performed himself. There was no way for a shunt to have been left in his arm. "Armed" with this new information (hey... it's hard to be funny at 5:30 am!) I resumed my poking and prodding. This time no reaction whatsoever. And both Steve and I could feel the same thing in both arms this time. So it must just be... I don't know? Something that's supposed to be there, I guess. Like I said... Master Thespian. My apologies to the vet and his staff.

I did manage to finish this piece on Friday. It's entitled "A Measure of Peace" and it's 12"x16". I'm really pleased with the way it turned out. I think it marks the "turning of the corner" that I've been lamenting about in my recent posts. It certainly is different than my previous work, although I think it still looks like "mine" somehow. It will be the first piece in a new body of work, the details of which are still floating around in my head. Basically, I just want to paint more realism and less "images as symbols" if that makes any sense. Perhaps you'll all have to just sit tight and enjoy the ride while I figure everything out. The inside of my head can be a frightening place sometimes.... lots of stuff just flying by with no real rhyme or reason. Be warned.

Anyway, because I'm proud of the fact that I actually painted something which I think most of you will be able to identify as a bird, here's a detail. (The large green thing, by the way, is a tree.) Baby steps. I didn't use a drawing or photograph for reference either. I just went for it. You're probably not that impressed, but I assure you... for me, this is a BIG deal.

I hope to have copies of this piece printed for use in our Christmas cards. I'd like to affix this image to the front of an ivory card. The recipients would be able to remove the artwork if they so desire and discard the rest. That's the plan... I'll keep you updated.

This weekend I also visited two different art fairs in an effort to estimate their worthiness. (I'm not really that high-and-mighty... just in a weird mood this Monday morning.) The first was really, really lame... only MAYBE 10 booths total! I'm glad I went to see that as it was touted as being something completely different. The second was an utter delight. It was set in the park in Studio City and the booths were all interspersed among the trees. It was like an idyllic walk in the forest in the middle of the city. There were approximately 140 booths and it was all high-quality art. And there was a good range from the serious to the funky. This show will definitely go on my list of shows for which I plan to apply in 2007.

My Baby

2006-10-06T05:52:00.000-07:00

This is Mont- gomery. He is, other than Steve, the absolute love of my life. In fact, he's been in my life longer than Steve. He is 12 and a half and he is the epitome of unconditional love. (Of course, he can get grumpy with anyone who is NOT his mommy... which makes him all the more dear to me.) He rules both Bentley (our Welsh Corgi) and Audrey (our Himalayan) like he was born to be king. Here, he's demonstrating his presidential pose. He always sits with his legs crossed like that... just so regal. Yesterday he was extra needy and wanted to be held literally ALL day long.

I've been watching him because about two months ago, Montgomery had a little cut on his forearm. It scabbed over and seemed to heal. The past couple of weeks, I've noticed he's still really licking that area. I keep watching it.... sometimes he's fine with my fiddling and sometimes he pulls away. Well, last night, Steve and I really got in there and felt. Finally, it dawned on us... We think that the stint from his surgery in August is STILL possibly in there! Now that we've made the connection, you can feel it - clear as day!!!

I'm angry, and I feel like the most horrible mother in the world! Why didn't I figure this out sooner!?!? How come I didn't know??? We're taking him to the vet on Saturday morning. I hope and pray they don't have to put him under again just to get in there and look. I hate having to put Montgomery through this. It breaks my heart and I want to scream. The only "good" thing, I suppose, is that he's not really in any pain that we can see... he just gets annoyed when we start rubbing his arm. Montgomery, I love you with my WHOLE heart.... please forgive me.

To change subjects, thank you to all of you who wrote such kind, supportive, uplifting comments in response to yesterday's post. I think the source of my frustration stems from a desire to paint, what I will call for lack of a better term, "pseudo-reality". I don't want to do "realism," per se, but I would like to be able to paint a simple table and not have it look like Montgomery did it (although he IS very good). I guess like everything else, it will come only through doing the work and practicing. I know that. But I appreciate hearing the encouragement. It helps to know I'm not out here in some sort of artistic void, toiling alone. It helps to know that my struggles are more universal and are understood by all of you. What did we ever do with the artistic angst before the age of the internet?? Before we could just reach out across time and space to connect with friends we NEVER would have met otherwise? I know what we did... we cut off our ears and sent them via snail mail. Thank God I don't have to do that, dear friends!!

Being Honest

2006-10-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

It's been a difficult week, I think...

The desire and enthusiasm to paint is there. But I just keep freezing... and getting distracted. It's ironic that I just finished my upcoming article on "Procrastination" for Artitude's winter issue. It occurs to me that I am doing exactly what I warn other people off doing in my article. And it all stems from fear.

I feel myself being pulled to create the type of art that I know will be accepted and revered in my altered art circle. I also feel a need to make art that I think other people will buy. As is the case for any artist, I just want my art to be liked.

Now, before you start, I already know what you are going to say... "You have to make art that is authentically you and that comes from your heart. Don't worry about what everyone else thinks! Make art that is real and people will love it." I know the dialogue. I've written or spoken those words myself perhaps a thousand times.

The freeze comes into play because I'm pretty sure I can't execute the type of art that I have in my head. It's not for lack of wanting it or having the time or the right supplies. I just don't have the technical skills to be able to paint a gorgeous painting. Lately I feel as though I rely on collage and hearts and birds and large images as a sort of a crutch.

Again, don't get me wrong... I have loved the process and the art that I've created on this journey of mine. All of the themes I have used have (and always will have) tremendous personal significance for me. I guess I'm just ready to turn a corner and do something new. Maybe that's what's called "creating a new body of work". I never really understood that phrase before. It seemed like all the work would just kind of blend together. But now I think I understand the importance of delving deep into a certain idea until you have learned and grown and made progress. When the time is right to let it go and look to something new, you'll know it. It will be there waiting for you like a dew-covered morning... full of promise. I suppose that's where I am now. But where I want to go feels like a universe away...

It seems surreal to me that my own writings would give me the answers for which I search. Maybe I have more intuitive knowledge than I ever realized? Anyway, I've just got to get in there and do. Maybe the first 100 paintings will be crap, but 101.... oh boy, look out! That could be the gem. There simply is no other way to get from point A to point B. And the first 100? Guess I'd better order more gesso...

Day to Day Minutiae

2006-10-04T05:40:00.000-07:00

I got to the "create a post" part of blogger yesterday and for the life of me, couldn't figure out what to type. I'm feeling pretty much the same today, but I thought I'd at least offer an explanation...

Monday and Tuesday have been errand-filled days. And I finally got to the point that I had to do something about the dust. So I've been doing house stuff: cleaning, grocery shopping, errands, etc. Nothing too exciting but all stuff that needs to get done. With three pets, the hair-factor is pretty incredible. We take the hose from the vacuum and run it around the perimeter and under all the furniture as a sort of temporary solution when we don't feel like cleaning yet. Steve did that just five days ago. You'd be amazed at the amount of hair I still swept up! Mopping got even more. The house is about 80 percent clean now... just a few rooms left. So that's a good feeling. Friday it will be dirty again. I'm sure you all know the pattern...

In between all the domestic stuff, I have done a little painting. I float in and add a layer to my background and then move on to other stuff while that dries... for 3 hours. So, I'm not getting much art done, but I am doing something.

I did finish my pieces for the "12 Days of Christmas" swap, and I'd dearly love to post a photo. However, it's meant to be a surprise... so I can't! Did I tell you this already? I can't even remember... geez!

As for the Day Fire, I'm thrilled to report that it's 100 percent contained! That has been the fifth largest fire in California's history! I'm not sure when the heavy blanket of smoke still clinging to the mountains will finally lift though.

We lost power for a few hours on Monday afternoon. A transformer blew which, of course, started a brush fire. Luckily they got that out pretty quickly.

Well, for not having much to write, that's several paragraphs worth of boring domestic updates, huh? Not all of life can be a thrill ride... I guess we need the calmer, more hum-drum days to make the more exceptional days stand out. I'm not complaining, mind you. I'm so, so blessed to lead the life that I do... dust and all!

Happy October!

2006-10-02T06:39:00.000-07:00

Well, this photo really isn't anything except a test. We downgraded the resolution on our "good" camera slightly to see if it would be enough for photos to be accepted by Blogger. Guess it worked, since this one uploaded successfully. I was going to delete it... I didn't make this or anything. It's just a Halloween ornament I picked up recently because the black cat reminded me of Montgomery. But then I decided, "What the heck? Why not give you something to look at in this post!?!"

I had a productive weekend, largely because I finished all of the pieces for the "12 Days of Christmas" swap I'm in. Yea! Check one more thing off the list. They still need to be packaged and wrapped and mailed, but the difficult part is behind me now. I also got my pieces for the "Lucky 13" show on their way to Mesquite. (Fingers crossed!)

The best news I can report, however, is that yesterday it DRIZZLED!!! I'm not sure where we are with the Day Fire this morning, but that weather HAD to have helped. I had dreams last night of even more fire... closer to home. I was running and flagging down motorists, asking them to them to call 911. I was the only one in a panic though. I ran and ran... then ended up at an audition being held in some weird, eerie, half-constructed building with scaffolding and flapping plastic and everything. Maybe I've been watching too much CSI...

Christmas Blessings (part 2)

2006-09-29T05:54:00.000-07:00

Well... it looks like my "Christmas Blessings" have come early this year! The Folk Tree Collection wants four of the fabric collages I posted about yesterday! My work is to be a part of their upcoming holiday exhibition entitled "Ornaments & Adornments XIV". (This means I just have four left.) I'm so excited and thrilled and bursting with joy!! The opening night reception is November 18. I've already got it in my calendar.

I got to paint pretty much all day long yesterday. The weather was perfect for drying outside. (If you don't count the smoke.) I'm pretty lucky to live in the desert if for no other reason than to have the world's largest heat gun. It was a nice day.

I also worked on my Bio and Artist's Statement for the holiday show. And I did a bit of work on an article I'm writing for the winter issue of Artitude. See, Suz... I'm making progress!

I wish you all a wonderful weekend filled with all the fun things you love to do...

Christmas Blessings

2006-09-28T05:38:00.000-07:00

Here's a photo of the most recent series of fabric collages I've been working on.

And here are a couple of detail shots...

I realize that you may be cringing at the thought of seeing "Christmas Blessings" already. I mean, we're still a month away from Halloween, for Pete's sake! All I can say is that I was on a roll and I'm attempting to be prepared. There are eight collages in all. They say things like "hope" and "peace" and "love" and "believe". There is to be a little wooden dowel at the top. It will be stained and have cording or ribbon added by which the collages will hang. Once I get that part together, I'll re-photograph and place these for sale on Etsy. The price will be $45.

I went to the post office yesterday. As I suspected, they cannot issue a prepaid label for use a month or more in advance. I've even had them refuse mail with a label dated just one week in advance! This is contrary to the information the "customer service" guy gave me on the phone. Ugh. I came home and wrote the nicest email that I could to the gallery explaining my attempts at solving this situation. They responded this morning giving me permission to write a blank check to the US Postmaster. I'll take it! Thank God.

I have a full day ahead of me with no errands that I foresee. I've spent the last two days doing mostly computer work and business stuff. Today it's just me and my paints. I have the four canvases I showed you earlier in the week, plus I'm itching to start two new canvases for possible entry in a show. The Collage Artists of America is having an exhibit coming up in November with the theme "Ripped and Torn". How apropos! I'm excited to have something to submit as I just joined this group in July.

As always, I'll keep you updated...

The Art of Shipping

2006-09-27T05:49:00.000-07:00

I spent most of the day yesterday at the UPS Store and on the phone with the US Post Office, UPS, and FedEX. I got disconnected by all three at least once. This meant I had to re-enter their computer-phone network of endless "Press one if..." to get back to where I was before. It also meant I had to start my story again with a new, clueless individual who then had to transfer me to eight other people. And to make matters worse, I got completely conflicting information depending on who I was speaking with in the same company! Argh!

The problem is this: I am to enclose a prepaid return shipping label with my artwork to be sent to the show in Nevada. Stamps and/or a check are not accepted. The prepaid shipping label may or may not be used depending on whether my art sells at the show. As a result, I'd like to only pay for the return if it actually is used. MaryBeth wisely suggested that I open an account with FedEX or UPS. This sounded like a terrific idea. The only issue is that both companies have heavy and intricate restrictions on their "pay-by-account" waybills. In essence, I'll be paying $20 or $30 to ship a 4 lb. package home! (Ground is not an option with this service.)

Perhaps this is more than you ever wanted to know about the movement of packages, but I feel compelled to share in case any of you are going through this or will go through this. Heck, if you're an artist reading this, I hope you ALL go through this at some point since it would mean you're needing to ship your art to a show! I'm going to go into FedEX and the Post Office this morning. I'll let you know how it pans out. The UPS store, by the way, is not really UPS (according to their workers) so they will only direct you to the UPS website if you have any questions beyond just "I need to mail this."

And of course, if any of you out there in BloggerLand have any more insight into this than I, please don't hesitate to share! I'm all ears...

As a result of all of this, no art was completed yesterday. Well... that's not totally true. I did manage to get some ink on my current fabric collages in order to antique some of the paper. So I did about 10 minutes of art. Some is better than none. I really have just resigned myself to the fact that some days as a working artist are all about the business end of things... It's part of the package. As I said in my post yesterday, most of the time I'm pretty darned lucky...

Painting Again!

2006-09-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

Here's a photo I snapped yesterday of my painting table. I took it because I am just thrilled to be getting back into the painting groove. It occurred to me yesterday that I haven't worked on my canvases since before our trip to Sequoia for my birthday... which was in July! I guess I've just been up to my eyeballs in fabric and other projects. Not that those weren't a worthy direction for my attention, mind you, but I'm just happy to be back to what I consider my first love. The paint might not look like much now, but it's a start. And I've been glowing all day and all night. How did I get so lucky to be able to do this thing I call "art" every single day? I get choked up just thinking about it...

You may or may not know that this set-up is basically in my kitchen. Our family room and kitchen are sortof all one big room. This table sits pretty much in the middle. Steve is unbelievably supportive and NEVER complains about the mess. He even admits to admiring the paint I've managed to get all over the phone. There really was no other solution in our current digs, however. The downstairs is tile and the sink is close. The back door is only steps away, which is fabulous as no heat gun could beat the drying power of the Southern California sun.

In case you're wondering, I do have a very beautiful studio upstairs as well. But that's the problem... it's very beautiful. I use that for my more restrained art efforts. And lately I've taken over the other front bedroom as my sewing room. Steve points out that I now really have three studios. And he's right. But that's okay. It is, after all, just us and the pets... Someday I will have that gorgeous, loft-like 20' x 20' space. But until then, I'm making it work. You need to do what you can with what you have, right? I think the most important thing in being an artist is that you actually produce art. Everything else is secondary.

The Totally Tricked-Out Tissue Box

2006-09-25T05:18:00.000-07:00

Here are a couple of photos from the new tissue box I finished over the weekend. This one will open my new Etsy shop... hopefully later today. Tomorrow at the latest. (Since this will be my first listing, I'm trying to give myself a buffer to allow for any major complications!) The link to my Etsy shop is active in the sidebar. Although there's nothing in the store as of this posting, you can at least see the storefront. Yea! One more thing off the list!

I feel like I worked my butt off all weekend, but didn't really make much progress. Do you know how that feels? Partly I think it was because Steve and I were completely derailed on Saturday afternoon. We had ANOTHER fire in Placerita Canyon, which is the Canyon behind our subdivision. It was like a sickening deja vu... a sky filled with black smoke, water-dropping planes and helicopters, utter dread. Luckily, they pounced on it, and it was out by Sunday morning.

The part that makes me furious is that this is the FOURTH fire in Placerita Canyon in three weeks. Apparently, there are eyewitness accounts of someone in a truck throwing some sort of lit flare out of the window and into the brush! What kind of sick person does this sort of thing?!?!?! Does he have some sort of vendetta against us? I hope they catch him. I won't tell you what I hope they do after that...

I've got a long list of computer stuff and paper work to get to today. (Not my favorite tasks, in case you didn't know!) But I also plan to work on my holiday fabric collages and get the first strokes of paint on a new batch of canvases. If you do take the time to take a peek at my Etsy shop, I just want to say "Thank You!" I so appreciate the visit!

My First Juried Show!

2006-09-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

Oh my God... Oh my God... OH MY GOD!!!!!
I still feel nauseous and ecstatic and humbled and certain someone must have made a mistake. But let me backup and explain...

A month or two ago, I came across a call for entries for an upcoming show in Mesquite, Nevada, with the theme of "Lucky 13". Perhaps it was my love of Vegas that prompted me to enter. Or perhaps it was my naivete... Honestly, I didn't even know where Mesquite was... just that it must be somewhere near my favorite city of sin so long as it was in the same state.

Anyway, I created and entered these two pieces for their consideration. It is, as I mentioned, a jury-decided show. Well, last night I found out that BOTH pieces were accepted! I can't even begin to tell you how incredible this feeling is! But perhaps you can sense a bit of my excitement in this blog post.

I am to send both pieces to the Virgin Valley Artists Association during the week of October 1 to October 8. The first piece is entitled "Thirteen Opportunities" and the second is called simply "13". Both pieces will be for sale. With any luck, they will find new homes. Maybe "13" is my lucky number after all...??? I'm staying in room #13 at Artfest. Perhaps this is the start of a trend...

I'm not sure if they will have an opening reception or not. I'd so like to attend if they do. But I'm just not sure if it's feasible as the show opens on 11/4 and Steve and I are just getting back from San Francisco on 11/1. In case you're wondering, I checked - Mesquite is only one hour and 12 minutes away from Vegas. Should I put it all on "13"?!?!

On the topic of the fires, the "Day Fire," as they call it (how original), is still going strong. It has burned 167 square MILES so far and is only 35% contained. Can you picture that much of our earth utterly destroyed? My heart just aches for all of the animals that used to live there. The winds changed yesterday and now all the smoke and ash is blowing directly over Santa Clarita. The Santa Anas are supposed to pick up tonight and continue through the weekend with gusts up to 65 mph. This happened last weekend and the poor firefighters couldn't keep up. The fire doubled in size during last weekend's winds and the containment went back down to 15%. Please, say a prayer that they can get a handle on this thing...

An Artful Life

2006-09-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

I started a new tissue box yesterday... if for no other reason than I am a glutton for punishment! I hope to have it finished by the end of the week with photos to show you. Okay... Monday at the latest.

I've also been working right along on my latest, *more simplified* fabric collages. I should have photos of those soon, too. I just realized that the end of the week is tomorrow. So perhaps Monday is looking more realistic.

I've been researching new shows for early 2007... mentally gearing up for the application process. I read somewhere recently that applying and putting yourself out there gets you used to the rejection. In some weird, demented way, that is correct. Rejection isn't so bad so long as you don't let it define you. It is just one person's opinion. End of story. Of course, it's okay to wallow and be depressed and hurt. But then you just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get right back on the horse. (And margaritas don't hurt either!)

I had dinner last night with my dear friend Marilyn Werst. I met her at Fiberfest in June. She and her husband are visiting from Kentucky, and she found time to fit a dinner with me and Steve into her busy schedule. It was wonderful to have the hubbies meet, but even more wonderful to just sit together and laugh and share life stories. It was like we never left Issaquah. Too soon the evening was over and I'm back in the land of contact via cyberspace. Marilyn, you are THE BEST!! Thank you for putting a precious sparkle in my week!!

Artfest and Other Odds and Ends

2006-09-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

My Artfest packet arrived in the mail last night! Yea! If it's even possible, I am more excited now than I was before. The packet is just the cutest thing ever. Way to think outside the box, Teesha! And I got all of my first choices in classes. I'll be taking Susan Lenart Kazmer's classes the first two days and then Stephanie Lee's class the last day. Now to begin the long wait until March... the end of March no less...

I also completed my class proposals for Art Unraveled 2007 and got those sent off to Linda yesterday. That was a lot of work, so it feels good to be able to check that off my list.

True to my word, I did a little painting and a little sewing as well. I'm trying to finish up a lot of miscellaneous odds and ends before we go away at the end of October. If I can accomplish what I'd like to, this will give me a little break during the holidays. Not a total vacation, mind you, but the ability to just focus on painting and nothing else. That's the dream anyway. Wouldn't that be nice? I've never not worked through all of the Christmas holidays.

I guess that's about all that's new and exciting. As they say, no news is good news.

The Start of Another Week

2006-09-18T06:10:00.000-07:00

I taught my "Totally Tricked-Out Tissue Box" class at Paper Post this weekend. It went well, and I think everyone had a lot of fun. My friends Judy and Lori were there, which meant a lot to me. Thanks, girls!

And a big thank you to everyone who took a moment to gush about my fabric collages. Boy, does that make it all worth it! I would say, "No... stop!". But I'm not gonna'!

The weekend seems to have just flown by. I was busy teaching most of the day Saturday. I made two trips to the San Gabriel Bead Company, which is over an hour away - but well worth the drive! And we did miscellaneous odd jobs/chores around the house. I feel like I'm fighting off a cold - you know that precarious place where it could still go either way? So I'm trying to get as much sleep as possible. Last night I was in bed by 8 pm. This morning I'm going to make a nice hot cup of Tracie's tea! (Thank you, again, Tracie!!)

Because of all this... I didn't get my collages photographed as planned. Maybe this week if I feel up to it. Maybe I'll just wait for the weekend and Steve's help... tripod wiz that he is. The Santa Anas have been blowing something fierce, so I need to wait for that to die down anyway. The winds, incidentally, are not helping the fire-fighting efforts. The fire that we see at night is still burning... since Labor Day now. As of yesterday, it is only 15 percent contained.

They're Finished!!

2006-09-15T06:25:00.000-07:00

Here they are! All 7 fabric collages are finally complete and hanging on the wall. (With three furry, four-legged trouble-makers running about, it's the safest place, believe me!) I still find it uncanny that the blue on the wall matches the blue in my artwork exactly.

It's difficult to capture all of the detail in a photograph of the entire piece... especially when I want to include the molding at the top and the ribbons that some of these have dangling from the bottom. I'm certainly glad I took all of the "in progress" close-ups that I did.

This weekend I plan to take better photographs outside on my black background that I can use for my website. This series of fabric collages will be in the "for sale" pages there... at least for the time being. I may try one on Etsy, but I haven't decided that as of yet. I'm still working on setting up my Etsy shop. There just aren't enough hours in the day.

It just feels good to be able to claim that all seven are finally complete. It's a relief that brings with it tremendous satisfaction. I'm really proud of the work I did here. It's unlike anything I've ever done.

In other news, I've been working on my charms for a swap that I'm in. I had a rather messy battle with resin last night. It's the first time I've ever worked with that product. I worked on my class proposal for Art Unraveled, and I began a new series of fabric collages. Yes... you read that correctly. But rest assured, these are MUCH simpler in nature. They have a Christmas theme. Their price point will be low and I hope to open my Etsy shop with these sometime in October, if not sooner. I'll keep you posted.

And one more promise... I'm declaring it here and now, for all the world to hear (or at least the part of the world that reads my blog)... I swear, on Monday morning, come hell or high water, I WILL get that paint brush in my hand AND use it! You have my word. Have a terrific weekend, everyone!

The Folk Tree Collection

2006-09-13T05:31:00.000-07:00

Don't you just love the name of this gallery... "The Folk Tree Collection"? I do. Especially because it's the name of my NEW gallery!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I met with the owner, Gail Mishkin, yesterday. Gail just couldn't have been any more delightful or easy to talk with. She totally put my frazzled nerves at ease. She was complimentary and easy-going and just a wonderful person to begin to get to know. I showed her some of my canvases and some of my fabric collages - both for consideration for their upcoming annual show with the theme of "Hearts and Flowers". She liked both styles of work but noted that they are very different, which I agree. She thought it would make a stronger showing for me if we were to pick one or the other. She selected one of my large canvases, "Fleeting" (pictured here) and three or four of my smaller canvases for the show. She also asked for five of my journals, in the style shown below. Gail will take three of my existing journals, and I've promised to create two more.

I am just thrilled beyond words! I wish my fabric collages could be shown as well, but Gail has told me she will keep those in mind for a possible future event. They are definitely more "spring" in feel, so I do completely understand and trust her judgement. In the meantime, I will have them for sale... probably on my website. As I promised, I will post pictures of the finished collages by the end of this week.

And as if I didn't have enough on my plate, Gail mentioned that a smaller, simpler fabric collage might do well in their Christmas show. I tried to take a nap after our meeting yesterday, but I was so excited I just laid there scheming. I finally got up and made a sketch of a new idea for this purpose. And if it doesn't work at the Folk Tree, then I think this collage would be a perfect way to open up my new Etsy shop. We'll see...

Last but certainly not least, I need to thank my friend Ruth Rae. I had visited the Folk Tree several times in the past, and I've always just adored everything about it. It's one of those stores that feels like it was made in the exact mold of your personality and everything in it is something you'd like to own. Anyway, it wasn't until Ruth suggested that I contact the owner for the "Hearts and Flowers" show that I even considered approaching a gallery. You are the best, Ruth... and any success I have on this front is attributed partly to you. Thank you.

An Interview

2006-09-12T06:04:00.000-07:00

So... I actually have had a real live, bonafide interview conducted and published! If you visit my friend Antonella's blog, you'll find her article about me in three parts, beginning on Saturday, September 9. She has flattered me to no end. Please check out her incredible quilling work by clicking through to her web page. That's a talent that requires some patience, for sure!

The house smells of smoke this morning and it's making my throat hurt. We've had a fire burning in the mountains since Labor Day. At night I can see the flames on the distant hill tops. During the day, our valley is covered with a grayish blanket of air. The fire has been burning in terrain so rough that they are only able to battle the flames from the air. It has been moving (thank God) away from us and all the homes closer to civilization. Last night it changed direction and is now doubling back on itself... how, I'm not sure. But the winds must have changed too because the acrid smell of smoke is everywhere this morning. It's still quite far from posing any danger to our home, but the omnipresent threat of your state being perpetually on fire is getting a little old to live with.

Remembering...

2006-09-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

September 11. I wanted to begin my post today with a brief statement about the victims of that horrible day five years ago. I, like the rest of America, remember you... not just today, but every day. I feel so very inept in my ability to express all of the emotions still swirling within me when I think of that clear, crisp morning. Your memory lives on in my heart and you will never be forgotten...

Steve and I did schlepp Bentley all the way to Santa Barbara this weekend in search of driftwood. Apparently, there was some massive, driftwood-clearing effort held right before our arrival. (I'm kidding here, but I can think of no other reason for the TOTAL lack of driftwood. It was weird.) Bentley had an awesome time, however.

Not to be deterred, Steve and I drove to this woodsy hiking area last night. We got a bit of exercise among the trees and found an ample supply of sticks and twigs which will do nicely as driftwood stand-ins. In fact, I think it will be nice to have the variety. It's pretty sad that we needed to drive 30 minutes to get to some space with trees, though. Such is life in the desert and in Los Angeles.

I have three of the seven collages finished and on the wall. I've decided to store them on my wall as I can think of no safer place. It's interesting to note that the paint color on the wall is an exact match to the greyish blue/green in my collages. They say you're always drawn to the same colors...

Fabric Collages... Even Closer!

2006-09-08T05:14:00.000-07:00

Here is the last "little bit" I will show you on these fabric collages. Why is it the last, you ask? Because I've shown you everything else! These are spiral paper clips sewn onto coffee-stained watercolor paper with a snippet of fabric in between. The bead is a freshwater pearl. These pieces are all sewn over the top of the Xpandaprint design I showed you earlier.

All of this posting has actually worked out to be pretty neat, I realized. When I do show you the entire piece, you will be able to go back through all of my earlier posts to see a detail photo of any part of the collage.

I did run into a bit of a small snag, however. The driftwood I had planned to use as the final component of these collages looks a bit like logs. A few pieces are demure enough to work perfectly, but the rest are way too big. I've informed Steve that we need to go find some driftwood this weekend... which is no small task when you live in the desert. (The original driftwood came from Fort Worden in Washington, so that's out.) Steve keeps insisting I just go to the driftwood store. Yeah, okay... I think we may take Bentley to the beach in Santa Barbara tomorrow to see what offerings are there. The selection is nowhere near what it is in Fort Worden, though! Wish me luck.

Fabric Collages... getting close!

2006-09-07T05:05:00.000-07:00

I worked on the computer most of the day yesterday... getting together my Art Unraveled 2007 class proposals. I still have a few more days of computer work ahead of me. (Not my favorite place to direct my attention, but necessary nonetheless.)

I did get these finished however (see photo). This is a piece of molding from the hardware store. There are 7 of them and they each measure 14 inches long. The molding pieces are to be the strip from which the fabric collages hang. Steve (good husband that he is) cut, primed, and painted two coats of a base coat on all the pieces. Then I got to come in and do the fun part: antiquing! I sealed them and last night Steve inserted eye hooks for me. I will attach the collages using chain. I should have a finished piece to show you sometime next week!

In other news, I am relieved to have my Artfest registration in the mail. I actually worried before I left that the post office would blow up and I wouldn't be able to get my "September 5" postmark. How's that for dedicated? Or do we say obsessed? It's a fine line, I'm telling you...

Fabric Collage Continued

2006-09-05T05:28:00.000-07:00

I'm ecstatic to report that this weekend I began sewing the front of the collages to the backs! Yea for me! (For any non-fabric peeps, this means I am approaching the end!) I am so pleased with the way these are turning out.

I decided to use a product that I was introduced to at Fiberfest this year. It's made by Pellon and it's called Fusible Fleece. I really felt like the collages needed more stability than just one simple layer of Warm & Natural batting... especially since they are so heavily embellished. I ironed the fusible fleece to the backing fabric. And now I'm sewing the entire "sandwich" together. The fusible fleece has given the collage tremendous stability.

I have one more embellishment to add - a piece of driftwood. And I was worried about the weight of the driftwood pulling on the front of the fabric and causing it to sag. Now with the fusible fleece in place, I will go through all the layers for this last addition, and I expect everything will work wonderfully. And I'm excited because I would never have known about this product by Pellon if I hadn't gone to Fiberfest this year. The things we learn and absorb in classes might not always become apparent until later, but surface they do!

I'm off this morning to mail my registration for Artfest, my Day of the Dead swap, and a few other items. I'm happy to be parting with my Artfest application as I'd like to stop waffling about possible class combinations and get on with my life! (I'm sure many of you feel the same.) Now it's just in the hands of the art gods and there's nothing more I can do. The surrender of control already makes me feel lighter...

Hope you all had wonderful weekends!

Fabric Collage Continued...

2006-09-01T06:03:00.000-07:00

Here is the latest embellishment I've created and added to the 'ole fabric collage series. I have to say it: "Isn't it just too cute?!?!" This particular heart is the largest, measuring just 2 1/2 inches. It is stuffed, so it is raised slightly from the surface. It's attached to the background with wire and a bit of glue. The center holds bits of paper and seed beads.

In other important news, the electric bill came yesterday. Now, if you've been following my saga, then you'll know how desperately I've been trying this past month to bring that @*$&^#) thing down from $609. I shouldn't say "trying". I should say "sweating" - through the days and nights. But anyway, that fateful day came, and the bill arrived. Do you know what it was?....... Drum roll please.... $113! Oh My GOD!!! How much does that make it all worth it?!?! Steve was just as ecstatic as me (in his own reserved, non-emotional way). But I know he was happy because he said I could order these cute new shoes that Stacie wrote about in her blog (thanks, Stacie!).

And last but not least, this is Audrey. When I forget to close the closet door, her favorite place to nap the day away is amongst my completed paintings. That does not make me happy. (We're just one barf away from disaster.) When I remember to close the door, she takes refuge under the cabinet in my studio. She's a bit of a screwball, as you may be able to tell from her expression. Honestly, I'm not sure if she's really altogether there at times. But she's a sweetheart and I love her. Thanks for being my studio buddy, Audrey... even if you are just sleeping.

And Bentley and Montgomery, don't you worry... you're day in "blog lights" will come too. (Why am I writing like they are actually reading my blog?) Anyway, to everyone else who does read and has opposable thumbs: Have a terrific holiday weekend!

The Magic of Creation

2006-08-31T06:32:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking a lot lately about what it means to be an artist. By definition, an artist is one who creates art. The art is the end-product and, I suspect, the goal. The art is what we put out into the world to be admired by an adoring public. The masses oooh and aaah, or they may moan and groan. But either way, they are taken in one form or another with the end-product that is art.

The interesting thing to me is that this is not where the magic happens at all... at least for the artist. Any rapture and bliss is felt by the artist during the period of creation. It is in the little moments spent alone - applying paint, gluing paper, sculpting clay, or sewing fabric. Inspiration happens here. The excitement of overcoming obstacles happens here. And the vibration of being in the zone with your materials happens here. The essential magic of being an artist occurs not when you've created your best work... but during the creation of that work. Once a piece has been realized, the magic that I'm speaking of will vanish like smoke in the wind. Until, of course, you move onto the next thing...

Which brings me to my blog. Lately I've been fearing that my daily posts about my fabric collages might be a bit boring. I desperately want to present you with a neatly-wrapped, beautifully displayed, completed piece of art. After all, this is the goal that society expects we artists achieve. But this morning I realized that my life as an artist is comprised of the bits and pieces... not the finished work. When I finally do present you with my completed collage, it will be with no small amount of sadness mixed in. The splendor of that creative period will be over, and I will mourn the loss.

So in the meantime, I'm not going to worry about the pressure to produce and the stress of racing toward a finished product. My daily trials and tribulations are my bliss. The simple act of creation is wherein lies the gift. It is why I do what I do. And that, my friends is what I have to share with you each day - wonderfully incomplete, beautifully fragmented magic.

I'm Published!

2006-08-30T06:51:00.000-07:00

I'm absolutely thrilled to report that I have an article in the latest issue (#5) of Art & Life. It's the first time I've been published, and I'm thrilled beyond words! My article is entitled: "Life on the Edge: Building My Website." It recounts the journey of a technologically un-inclined individual... me. If you read it, I hope you'll enjoy it. And if you don't already subscribe to this fantastic publication, then run - don't walk - to get signed up. It's published by the wonderful Teesha Moore, and each issue is as unique, informative, and inspirational as she is. Thank you, Teesha, for giving me a voice!

On another topic, my sincerest and deepest thanks to everyone who took the time to pour out your compassion for me. It means the world. And it makes me wonder what we ever did before the age of the internet. Most of you would never have even known I had a bad day and I would have missed the opportunity to have felt so loved. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for reaching out.

They seem to have the fire totally (*knock wood*) under control and they're now in the "mop-up" stage. I'm not sure exactly what that means but it's better than the "fire-fighting" stage. I am amazed and grateful they were able to get a handle on it so quickly. I spent most of yesterday cleaning to rid our house of the smoke smell. We hosed down everything outside as best we could to get rid of the ash. Poor Bentley just had a bath over the weekend... looks like he'll need another. Now I've got to play catch up in my studio. Unfortunately, I've got appointments most of the morning, so that will have to wait until later. Life goes on...

Let Me Tell You a Story...

2006-08-29T04:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday morning, I was happily working away in my studio, making tremendous progress. Things were flowing effortlessly, and it was a nearly perfect morning... until I glanced out the window. Immediately, I knew the color of the sky wasn't right. The light was too red... and too dark... It was nauseating.

I raced down the stairs and outside to see a fire burning on the mountain behind our house. Two years ago our neighborhood was forced to undergo mandatory evacuations as we watched the fire burn right up to the edges of our yards. It was a horrible experience. And this was too similar in nature for my comfort.
Steve came home from work at noon and we began to pack... again. How do you decide which items from a lifetime of collecting make the cut? It is a surreal process with a cruel time limit. It is nauseating and nearly paralyzing. The animals don't understand the high stress, and this breaks my heartl. I feel powerless to comfort them. I wouldn't wish this type of day on anyone.

By evening they had announced a 70 percent containment. Thank God. But with nightfall comes the eerie quiet of a sky devoid of aircraft. The hours stretch on unbearably. The knowledge that there are no water-dropping helicopters and no fixed-winged aircraft bringing fire retardant is scary. I picture those brave firefighters on foot in the rocky terrain. They've been fighting with a hundred pounds of gear all day in one-hundred-degree weather. I'm sure they're exhausted... and now they have lost their visibility. The sky turns into an inky black, which makes it difficult to determine if it's actually getting better or worse...

This morning the air is heavy with ash and smoke. No open windows for me today. It's still too dark for me to get a feel for what has transpired over the course of this long and sleepless night. I do see stars, however, so that is an answer to a prayer. I'm tuned into the radio, waiting for an update. They are promising the aircraft will be back up shortly after 6 am. That jumble of mechanical noise never sounded so sweet...

Making Progress...

2006-08-28T05:23:00.000-07:00

My "With Love" series is coming along. For the first time, I feel that I will likely have a finished piece to bring to the Pasadena gallery in September. The tags pictured here are those really tiny ones - approx. 3/4" tall. I redid the french knots you see in the ribbon. I felt the brown was too distracting. I replaced them with a little cluster of ivory seed beads.

I worked a lot this weekend in my studio. But the nice thing about fabric and sewing is that it's generally portable. I think I spent an equal amount of time working in front of the TV while Steve relaxed and watched football.

Speaking of which, I CANNOT wait for the regular season to start! For those of you who don't know it, I am a HUGE football fan... the Miami Dolphins being my team. Steve roots for the Raiders. You'll know we're diehard fans when I tell you that we tacked on a trip after our Hawaii honeymoon to run up to Oakland because the Dolphins were playing the Raiders that weekend. Now that's dedication! I keep telling Steve how lucky he is...

With One Palette

2006-08-25T05:22:00.000-07:00

I've been aware for quite some time that artists, along the course of their artistic lives, develop a specific palette. It is as signature to them as the way they dress or the way they wear their hair. An artist's palette defines the artist in a certain way and makes it easier for an audience to identify their work.

My question is this: Can an artist have several different palettes? This question perplexes me. From what I can figure out, I work in three primary palettes. One is more dominant than the other two, but I certainly feel equally excited by all three.

My most dominant palette dwells in the land of earth tones: rich reds, ochres, and quinacridone gold...a yellow green and some deep blue and a dash of purple. The colors are moody and rich. They are, in fact, the colors of my home as well. My second palette, which I turn to primarily with fabric, deals with pastels. I enjoy the soft, aged look of worn and faded fabrics. I choose ivories, pinks, peach, pale turquoise, butter yellow. A soft brown is about as daring as I will get here. It's about a vintage look and times long past. My third palette expresses my wild side, I suppose. It is outlandish and delightfully bright - hot pink, orange, lime green, and vibrant turquoise.

Does that make me less of an artist? Am I an artist with an identity crisis or an artist with no direction? Or perhaps I have yet to find my path and my "style"? But my gut tells me this is not the case. I enjoy all three of my color personalities and feel equally comfortable expressing myself in each. Why not go forth on all three levels and conquer? I think more emphasis needs to be placed on the expression itself rather than whether it fits within a standard and expected color scheme, don't you? And it's certainly not my job to worry about whether the public can identify a piece as mine. That's what the signature is for.

Dia de los Muertos (et al...)

2006-08-24T05:26:00.000-07:00

Here's one of the pieces I made for the Day of the Dead Swap I'm partici- pating in. I still need to add the hanging part, but other than that, they're all finished. Each piece measures about 5 inches square. I'm happy with the way they turned out. And I got to experiment with the rolled edge binding for the first time.

And in a completely different color scheme, here's another photo of part of my fabric collage. The picture doesn't do the texture in this piece justice. I used Xpandaprint, which I purchased from Meinke Toy. (It comes in white and black.) Per Beryl Taylor's instructions in "Mixed Media Explorations", I brushed it on through a stencil. Then when it was still wet, I heated it with a heat gun. As it dries, the Xpandaprint sort of bubbles and expands and turns into this weird-feeling stuff. I then painted the entire thing beige, let it dry, and then dry brushed an off-white over the top. It's pretty cool-looking in person. This is Steve's favorite technique on the collages. I suppose because it's the most manly, given all of the other hearts and flowers. He's right though... it is pretty darned cool.

A Few More Bits

2006-08-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

Here are "a few more bits" from my fabric collages. The frames are slide mounts that I dyed in coffee. They are layered with ribbon and fabric and then attached with decorative brads. I wrote the words "with love" around the borders in pencil, but hadn't done that yet in this photo. The little jeweled pieces in the center were a find at the vintage fabric show. I got them all sewn on yesterday with a running stitch.

I've decided that the title of this series is going to be "With Love". I'm really excited to share these with Gail, the owner of the Folk Tree Collection gallery in Pasadena. I'm meeting with her in just a few short weeks. I hope her response is favorable. Moreover, I hope I can finish them in time! I may have to abandon working on all 7 at once and just shoot for completing one or two. I'll make that decision next week sometime...

More Fabric Collage

2006-08-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

Here are the pictures I tried to show you yesterday. They're more components of the fabric collages I'm working on. Most of the pieces I'm adding to the collage contain "scraps" that I picked up at the flea market. I imagine they were a part of someone's clothes at some point. Now they're a part of my art! If their owners only knew... Lelainia, do you recognize your celluloid buttons from Fiberfest?

I picked up my banner yesterday, but they need to redo it. Ugh. Surprisingly, my name is spelled correctly. However they inserted 6 grommets instead of the 4 I asked for. The extra two are right in the center and really draw your eye there instead of to my name. I was really specific about placement, so thankfully they will redo it at no charge.
That's about it. Nothing too exciting to report. I'm just happily working away in my studio... making slow but sure progress. Working with fabric these past couple of weeks has been refreshing and inspiring. I think that's why I love the term "mixed media" so darned much. It's basically a license to do anything you want.

Today I'm going to combine both worlds and do some painting on the fabric. Nothing major... just some stamping and maybe some dry brushing. I'll keep you informed. Are you dying to see the entire piece yet? Maybe I'm not building as much suspense as, say, "Snakes on a Plane", but I'm doing my best.

Pictures Optional

2006-08-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

Good Morning! I've been dutifully taking photos of my work this weekend to be able to share with you today. However, blogger is being temperamental. So it looks like I won't be able to show you anything. Sorry about that. Stay tuned for beaucoup des photos in the near future!

I worked hard all weekend long though and made some great progress. I worked on my fabric collages, my Day of the Dead swap pieces, and some writing I needed to complete. Add to that all the usual chores, housework, yardwork and errands, plus a full day of pre-season football, and that about rounds out my weekend.

The best news I have to report of the entire weekend is that Steve (wonderful husband that he is) fixed the blown circuit! Yea! So no hiring some expensive electrician. Double yea! I got a new heat gun, but I don't like it. It's wimpy. I think I may investigate the heat guns they have at the hardware store. Those seem more industrial. While I'm at it, maybe I'll look at the Dremels... I've been coveting one of those for quite some time now.

A First Look

2006-08-18T07:52:00.000-07:00

Here's your first glimpse of the fabric collages I've been so dilligently working on. The first picture is pretty self-explanatory. The second photo shows the little paper pieces I posted about yesterday attached to their base. The layering is slowly starting to build, and the results are exciting. I'm hoping to experiment with Xpandaprint this weekend, but I need to buy a new heat gun first.

I was able to approve the proof this morning for my banner. With any luck it will be ready for pickup in a few days. This banner is the equivalent of "my name in lights" because it is basically my name, stretched across 6 feet. My intention is to place it at the top of my art fair booth. I feel strongly that name recognition is important. In addition, my name is so darned hard to spell, I'm hoping that seeing it will help people to remember. That's the plan, anyway.

Have a great weekend, everyone!!

Playing with Techniques

2006-08-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

These are some pieces I just finished using one of Beryl Taylor's techniques in her fantastic new book "Mixed Media Explorations". They are to be components of the fabric collage series I'm currently working on. Aren't they simply fab?

This technique is wonderful... and so much fun! It involves using water soluble paper. I dampened several sheets and then pressed it gently onto a rubber stamp. I set it out in the sun to dry completely and then voila! I added more depth with washes of Titan Buff and Burnt Umber. I couldn't be happier with the results.

Rejection

2006-08-16T05:53:00.000-07:00

Well... it happened... I got my first rejection last night from The Santa Barbara Artwalk.

It's funny that I'm not more upset. Sure, I had the expected wave of shock and dismay and hurt and anger. But that passed pretty darned quickly, and now I'm okay. It may be the first show I've applied to, but it's certainly not the last. I firmly believe that power comes in the movement of "doing". And that's exactly what I will do: keep on moving forward. I will continue to stock my inventory and I will continue to apply to shows. And when one of these venues does accept me, it will be at precisely the right time for me on this journey of mine. I trust that the Universe knows what it's doing. And in the meantime... I paint.

One More Step...

2006-08-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

Well... I did it! The business cards are officially ordered as of this morning. Here's what they're going to look like. (It was still sort of dark when I took the photo, so the colors aren't as rich as in real life.) We fooled around with borders and more text and other options. But in the end, I like the strength that the simplicity of this card imparts. And man is it cool to see my own art on them! It's like an instant graphic. And it just makes me feel "official".

My first set of business cards were a cheap, pre-fab design from one of those label companies. The "pre-fab" part means that they actually showcased someone else's art! They served their purpose at the time. But my new cards say, "I take myself and my life as an artist seriously." I like that. I hope you do, too.

Funky Crate

2006-08-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

You know you've found your calling when you sort of can't wait for Sunday to finish so that you can get back in your studio on Monday morning to create. That's an amazing feeling... and one I've certainly never felt with any other vocation. It's so validating and life-affirming.

These photos are of this awesome, funky crate I picked up at our local antique mall this weekend. I'm not sure that it's even really all that old, but I just love it. The minute I saw it, I knew it needed to be my yarn caddy. Isn't it perfect?!?

Okay... on another topic... I'm wondering right about now if the electric gods of the universe are against me. If you've been following my blog, you'll no doubt remember our $609 electric bill. You'll also remember that I painted in order to heal, and I've been suffering through some hot afternoons. I have yet to turn on the air conditioning once in August! That's pretty major for me. But I'm determined to get that bill reduced to something not so insane. And I'm worried about Southern California Edison's 200% promised rate hike this month.

So on Friday afternoon, I turned on my heat gun to dry my art - like any good impatient artist would do. The thing explodes... literally. There were sparks and a few flames and I had this big black smoke/burn mark on my hand. After this incident, none of the 8 outlets along that corner of the kitchen were working.

I figured, "No problem, it's probably just a blown fuse." Steve came home and we flipped ALL of the circuits and reset ALL of the safety switches both inside and out. Nada. We have no idea what to do next and electricity is certainly something you don't want to experiment with. Wanna guess how much the electrician is going to be? My bet is that it will be precisely the difference between this month's bill and the $609 from last month. How does that happen!?!?

... what to say???...

2006-08-11T06:04:00.000-07:00

I have enjoyed keeping a blog. It has surprised me just how much I enjoy it. But sometimes I feel pressure to relay some deep insightful thoughts about art and life. I'm not sure if I ever accomplish this, but at least on most mornings I try. Today, however, I'm at a loss. All I can think of is turning on the coffee pot. So rather than be insightful, I'll just tell you what I did yesterday...

I'm still working on getting my business cards designed. Gale is the name of the guy I've been dealing with at The Printing House. He's the owner. And he's a wonderful, patient man! Little did he know that working with an artist would be so difficult. He diligently sends me mock-ups via email. I make my lengthy comments and send them back. Then he gives me another round of options. We're getting close, and I'm so excited to see a card with my own art on it! I'll post a picture when they're finished.

I did some layout work on my series of fabric pieces. I also worked on design ideas for the Day of the Dead swap and the Charm swap. I experimented with a new technique from Beryl Taylor's book "Mixed Media Explorations." And I pulled some papers and images from my stash for collage.

I contacted a sign company to have a banner made with my name on it for my booth. Today I have to go there to place the order. I also need to make a trip to Michaels for various odds and ends.

I was reading Pam Garrison's blog the other day and she talked about and posted pictures of a lot of work-in-progress. I really found that interesting. We, as artists, aren't always as fixated on the final work as we are in knowing how the creator arrived at that point. As a result, I will try to post more photos of my work in progress. That's my promise. But not today. Right now, I'm heading for the coffee...

Illumination

2006-08-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

Here it is... "Illum-ination". Some of you may remember it as "black art" or "ode to Southern California Edison". In any case, I'm pleased with it. The figure is rather washed out in this photo, but she's comprised of a mix of white, beige, and blue/gray paint. The squares of paper in the lower right spell out "illumination". I think if you click on the picture, you'll get a bigger rendition. Just goes to show you that art can be healing. I started this in such a bad, angry mood. And while working on it, something in my core began to shift. What's that expression? ...When life gives you lemons, make lemonade? Yes, I think that sums it up.

My Day to Day Life

2006-08-09T05:08:00.000-07:00

This is "Fleeting". I finished it a couple of months ago, but I don't think I've posted it here yet. Forgive me if I have. It measures 22"x28".

I got four new canvases textured and gessoed yesterday. It gives me a little thrill to know they're sitting there all pristine and ready for me to come add paint today.

I also started work on a garland of my own, inspired by Pam Garrison's article in Somerset Studio. In addition, I had the opportunity to see her work firsthand at ArtFIBERfest, and it's just amazing.

I'm working on a series of fabric mixed-media pieces as well. There will be seven in all. I'll post some pictures of work-in-progress when I have more to show you. (Right now they're just a stip of fabric, and that's not too exciting, believe me.) These pieces are inspired by Beryl Taylor's book "Mixed Media Explorations."

Many thanks to Lelainia the instigator! Now I've signed up for three swaps in the coming months! It's a bit much given my schedule and everything else I'm trying to accomplish, but I'm happy to be making some art for myself again. I've missed that.

I've been spending some time updating the links section on my website. I should be ready to upload it by the end of the day today. Oh, and don't forget about my "ode to the electric company." That piece is entitled "Illumination" and I should have pictures for you tomorrow.

See? Busy, busy, busy. And I couldn't be happier.

To Be An Artist

2006-08-08T05:11:00.000-07:00

I came across a quote recently that really resonated with me. It's by Anne Truitt. She says, "The most demanding part of living a lifetime as an artist is the strict discipline of forcing oneself to work steadfastly along the nerve of one's own most intimate sensitivity."

Doesn't that just get right to the heart of what it means to be an artist? Sometimes I feel that I hold a piece of myself in reserve when I create. It's almost as if I'm willing to share most of myself, but not quite all. I long to just "put it all out there" - the good, the bad, and the ugly - just as Frida Kahlo did. In my opinion, this is precisely why Frida's work is so mesmerizing and so revered. Her paintings are a direct window to her soul, with no holes barred. I admire the guts that takes.

With Anne Truitt's words, I realize that we, as artists, all face this sort of balancing act. How much can we share? I'm certain the answer is different for everyone. But I'm also just as certain that to be truly "great", we must be willing to share it all, however cloaked the message may be. No other job requires more. And while oftentimes scary, this prospect makes me feel distinctly proud and tremendously blessed to call myself an artist.

"Freedom"

2006-08-07T06:10:00.000-07:00

This is a piece I finished right before we left on vacation. It's entitled "Freedom". I'm really pleased with the way it turned out. And it looks even better in person, if I do say so myself.

The image is one that I found at a swap meet. He's a sailor from another time. The strip running through "Land of the Free" says "FREEDOM" over and over again. Below that, I've attached three pennies and some chain. (Good 'ole Abe breaking the bonds of slavery, don'tcha know?) Underneath the sailor are the words "Home of the Brave" and in the upper right-hand corner is written "September 11".

This one just sort of evolved on its own, but I couldn't be happier. It's 22" x 28", and I hope it finds a good home someday... maybe to a family who has one of its own serving overseas...

(By the way, don't get too worried about the pictures. The files I take for show submissions are with the "good" camera. Blogger won't allow me to upload such huge files. The photos you see here are with my old, "cheapie" digital camera. That's why they're not as great. Just didn't want you to think my new Canon EOS 350 wasn't all it was cracked up to be.)

My weekend was super-busy with work, but I got so much done! That always feels good. I finished up of all the canvases I have been working on and cleared my table to begin something fresh today. I also managed to complete a lot of the stacked-up computer work as well. It's nice to see the "to do" shrinking. I'm meeting with a printer about designing business cards today. I'm excited to get some with my own art on them. I tell you though, anyone who says that being a full-time artist is all about the art is full of baloney. The business end always seems to soak up more time! Such is life. I'm blessed to be able to do the art that I do get done, and I know it!

A Birthday Gift

2006-08-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

This is a picture of a birthday gift from Edina. I plan to hang it in my studio, right above my desk. Isn't it just lovely? It means the world to me that she thought to send me something, and even more that it was made from her heart. What a talented artist and what a cherished friend.

You'll be happy to know that I have been true to my word in creating "black" art. My friend Lelainia suggested I should send the finished piece to the electric company with a receipt for $609. I think that's pretty funny. And a good idea.

"Black Art" is still in progress, but I'll post a picture when it's complete, I promise. I'm feeling better already. Art is therapeutic, for sure.

The Psychology of Creating

2006-08-03T05:48:00.000-07:00

What is the best kind of mental "space" to be in when you create? I mean, are there given parameters that, when followed, allow you to produce your best work?

For example: today I'm grumpy. And pissed off. We got our electric bill last night, and I will share with you that it was $609! And California is getting a 200% rate hike beginning August 1. It seems unfair and cruel. Our daily temperatures climb to 112-115 here throughout much of the summer. What will the elderly people do? Or stay-at-home mom's with little babies? What will I do?

I don't feel like working on my canvases today. I feel like all of my anger and upset will come out through my brush. I'm not in the mood. Which leads me to the question of this blog. What is a working artist to do? Should I just push through the obstacle and use the precious time I have each day to get some work done, regardless of my inner state? Or should I give myself a break? But then I feel like one of those cliche'd "temperamental" artists...

Perhaps I should just abandon my heart-filled works-in-progress and paint what's inside of me today. No one will want to buy it, certainly. But at least I can work though these feelings of anger and powerlessness. It occurs to me that Frida operated and painted from a place of tremendous pain throughout most of her life. Now, I don't begin to compare my pain at receiving the electric bill with hers, but she produced some pretty awesome and revered work while dwelling in a less-than-perfect mental space.

I guess the point of art - in any medium - is to get what is inside of you to the outside. And that can't always be happy, shiny, and perfect... for any of us. We are, after all, only human. So today I think I will go forth and work primarily with black. Maybe I'll make a gift to the electric company. They should appreciate it. Black is, after all, the absence of light.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation (part 3)

2006-08-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

This is the last of the vacation photos, I promise! Here's a pic. of Steve on our balcony at the Justin Winery. What a lovely place that is. We went hiking one morning on the vineyard grounds. We took our sketchbooks and stopped on a hill overlooking our room to draw. I want to fill mine in with watercolor... maybe this weekend. I must tell you that Steve is quite the artist himself, though. His drawings are always wonderful and always effortless. Both of his grandparents and his mother were/are incredible artists, so it's in his blood, I guess.

Here's the view from our room at Sycamore Mineral Springs Resort. Our own private hot tub on our own private balcony surrounded by pines and other foliage... can't get much better than that! There's a trail right behind these cottages in "the west meadow" that runs all the way to the beach. It makes for a wonderful morning jog... followed by a hot soak, of course!

And lastly, this is my favorite picture from our whole vacation. In my opinion, it just epitomizes the beauty of Sequoia National Park. If you look closely, you'll see a waterfall coming down the mountain, which we hiked to. Isn't it just breathtaking? Reality is always a challenge when you have a getaway as special as this one.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation (part 2)

2006-08-01T05:47:00.000-07:00

This is me atop Moro Rock. It's a large granite dome about 6,725 feet up. The climb to the top is up 400 steep stairs, carved into the granite. If you're in moderate shape, it's not a challenge physically... but boy is it mentally! Looking at the steps was not the problem. Looking out and down was a different story (for me anyway).

As you can see from the second photo, the effort was well worth it. The view spans the Great Western Divide. We were told that if it had been a completely clear day, we'd be able to see all the way to the ocean. Pretty amazing, this planet of ours....

Yesterday was a challenge for me as well, but not in a "fear of heights" sortof way. It was more of a "too many deadlines, not enough time" sort of stress. Plus it's always hard to come back from a wonderfully relaxing trip to everything that's been piling up while you've been away.

I spent most of the day tracking down my Beverly Hills art show application, which is due today. You may remember that I mailed it on July 20 via certified mail. Plenty of time. The post office is still showing it hasn't been delivered. After a lot of phone calls and pleading, the Beverly Hills people confirmed that they have it, but I ended up looking stupid. What is up with the post office these days?!?!

I'm also trying to wade my way through the tons of proposals I have from different banks. I need to get setup to accept credit cards for shows, and it's a difficult decision to make. Each offers something slightly different than the others and it's hard to determine how it all will pan out in the end.

One other thing I learned is that I DO NOT like doing art for themes that I'm not that into. I got this hair-brained idea to submit a couple of pieces for this show in Nevada. The theme is "Lucky 13". Now, you'd think being the Vegas girl that I am, this would be right up my alley. I adore Vegas, but not so much in my art. At any rate, I'm almost finished with the pieces I want to submit, but I really hate them. I mean R E A L L Y. But, what can I do? Lesson learned. No more conforming to someone else's ideal. If a theme and my passion coincide, great. If not, walk away. Simple as that.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation

2006-07-30T12:42:00.000-07:00

The giant sequoias are... inde- scribable. But I'll try. They are majestic, strong, graceful, eternal, humbling, powerful, magical, and unbelievable. And that doesn't even begin to cover it. I've never been so moved by something simply by its very existence. These pictures don't do them justice, believe me.

This first photo is Steve and me in front of the General Sherman Tree. It is the largest tree in the world. (There are a few taller, but by sheer volume, it's the biggest.) It's thought to be approx. 2,200 years old and weighs 2.7 million pounds. Every year, it adds enough new wood to make a new, 60-foot tall tree measuring one foot in diameter. Steve and I are quite a distance from the trunk, so it doesn't look that big, but believe me, it's HUGE!

This is a view of General Sherman near its base, looking up. It's interesting because the very top is really scraggly and craggy sort of looking. The topmost branches almost look like "sky" roots, reaching up at various heights.

The most incredible and perhaps unexpected aspect of seeing these trees in person, however, was the spiritual impact they had on me. It's hard to put something so personal and so "gut-level" into words. All I can say is that their very existence (and subsistence in the face of fire, disease, etc.) imparts a sense of greatness. Like there MUST be something else at work here in this universe of ours. Being near them put my life in perspective. All of my little worries and concerns just seem so inconsequential in the grand scheme of things. It was like a return to some long-forgotten truth of mankind.

I'm failing here in my descriptions. I can see that. So I'll stop rambling. Maybe that's why I make art: to express what I cannot in words.

This is a photo of me in a grove of some of the smaller, more "average" giant sequoias. You can get a little more perspective on their size from this photo. But again, these pictures don't even begin to do them justice, I swear!

And lastly, here's me with one of the really small trees. Yup, I just had to hug it! Their bark is surprisingly soft. The texture is such that there are little fibers everywhere - not the kind that would produce splinters at all, but more of a long-haired cat type of feel. Sort of. It's hard to describe.

So what does this all have to do with art, you may ask? Plenty. I am so inspired by these giants that I plan to create a new series of work based on what I saw and what I felt while in Sequoia National Forest. I have worked with the tree motif in the past as a symbol for the circle of life. For me, trees also symbolize growth and the passage of time. I'm excited to explore these concepts further in a new body of work. I also have an idea for an assemblage that I want to do which will be just for me. I have to find just the right box to house it though. I feel an antique trip coming on!

Before I can begin all of these grand plans, however, I need to wrap up all of the stuff that's in progress. Returning from a long trip is always stressful for me because no matter how much running around I do before I leave, there's always twice as much work waiting for me when I return. (Alas, the art fairies don't slave on my behalf while I'm away!) But this time the shock is eased tremendously by my memories of the best birthday and birthday trip I've ever had in my life. Truly. And General Sherman tells me everything will work itself out in time. It always does...

I'm Off...

2006-07-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

The laundry is finished. The house is clean (enough). 408 errands have been done. We've finished the yardwork. The pool has been cleaned and chemicals added. The plants are watered. My paints and canvases are neatly sorted and stacked. The kennel arrangements have been made. Our house sitter is confirmed. And I'm almost done packing. Such is the ritual before we leave to go out of town. (But throw in a major dose of stress and frazzled nerves while everything is going down.)

This is to say that Steve and I are going on vacation. Yea! Recharging one's batteries is sooo important, don't you think? And this vacation will especially recharge my art batteries, for sure! Here's why:

We're going to the Sequoia National Forest to see the General Sherman Tree as well as all the other trees there. We'll be there for my birthday. I can think of no better birthday than to be surrounded by nature with the man I love. Then we're going to stay at the Justin Winery in Paso Robles. This is a lovely little vineyard. They only have 4 rooms, and each is amazing. After that, we're off to Sycamore Mineral Springs Resort in Avila Beach. Every room has it's own private outdoor mineral springs hot tub. Pretty awesome, huh?

So you can be certain that this vacation will be all about relaxation. I hope to do a lot of hiking and some running. (There's a great little path through the woods that runs from Sycamore Springs down to the beach.) I'm bringing a lot of reading, some knitting, my sketchbook and my watercolors. I love doing watercolor while on vacation because they're so portable. It also gives me a chance to explore a different medium without any pressure. I'm not producing art for a show or a class or a deadline. It's purely for me and me alone. That's important, I think.

Some day I will probably have a laptop and be able to blog whilst on vacation. You'd be able to see pictures of the trees that same day. But for now, you'll just have to sit quietly by and wait in suspense. I'll be back July 31. Talk to you then!!

2006-07-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

This piece is entitled "Discovery". It's 18"x22". I finished it about a month ago, but I thought I'd share it with you. There isn't much in the way of "stuff glued on" for this piece, but I did use my new "Scribbles" 3D paint. They come in little bottles, and they're meant for fabric. But I have been having a lot of fun using them on my canvases. They leave a slightly raised line when dry, and they come in glitter or plain - all colors. Fun! (I buy them at my local craft store.)

I finished up my application to the Beverly Hills art show this morning. This one was a TON easier since all the drama seems to have passed. (At least for the time being.) I'll mail it this afternoon.

These two shows are the only ones I will be applying to for the remainder of the year. (Both are in the fall.) In case you don't already know, there's a tremendous length of time between when the application is due and when the show actually is. Both shows I'm applying to actually have an unusually short lead time. I plan to gear up for more applications when the 2007 listings come out.

I tried a new approach to creating yesterday, which turned out miserably. I lost a lot in the way of supplies. Of course, I might do well to limit my experimentation to one piece at a time, rather than beginning - and then throwing out - seven pieces! It was paper though, not canvas... so that's some small relief. It's ironic that I posted yesterday about procrastination and pushing through it. This morning I find myself doing just that, especially given yesterday's misadventures. But I will take my own advice and keep on keepin' on! Cheers!

Procrastination

2006-07-19T05:19:00.000-07:00

I was reading an article recently in my Art Calendar magazine by Jack White. He always has something interesting to say with regard to the ins and outs of being an artist. I found this month's topic to be particularly intriguing. He writes, "Procrastination starts with the desire to be perfect. We want to wait until we can get 'it' right, whatever 'it' is. You delay starting because you want to be sure you are perfect."

How often does this happen to us? If we are to be honest with ourselves, I would venture to guess the answer would be with surprising frequency. I know I sometimes become paralyzed when I am about to invoke a new technique or idea. The blank canvas can be a fearful thing. Of course, I don't call it "fear" or "procrastination." I simply tell myself I just have to get a, b, and c done first! When I stop and think about it, however, I realize that a, b, and c don't carry that much importance in the grand scheme of being an artist. The important, no - the essential action of being an artist means getting that brush loaded with paint onto the canvas.

It's human nature to want to do something well. As adults, we don't want to waste time with the "learning" of a craft - we just want to be good. But as Robert Burridge says, "You paint to teach yourself how to paint." And he's right. The stumbles and bumbles along the road are perhaps more important than the artwork that is executed well the first time. As Jack White so eloquently warns, "Failure is going to happen to anyone who is making an effort."

And so I try to plunge onward, every day. I try to find comfort in the fact that I am only human. This is a journey, not a destination. My path is my own, and no good will come from comparing myself to other artists. All I can do is the best that I can. But I must get in there and do something. I hope you'll join me by taking action - in whatever it is you may do. Let's promise ourselves that we won't just sit idly by and "wait" for another day...

Slides Have Arrived!

2006-07-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

I got my slides back from iprintfromhome last night. They are absolutely FABULOUS!! 36 in all. Each one a gem. The color is vibrant. The focus is good. They are centered. The black is true black. In short, they look just like the pictures... imagine that! I will definitely be using this company again in the future. And 36 slides cost me just $62.38, plus shipping. (We paid $27 for the two rush slides locally!) Iprintfromhome was prompt and professional. I just love them!

What's more, their website advertises "fine art prints". (I had many questions for their patient customer service representative.) It turns out that their fine art prints are really giclees. Now, I need to do more research on this, but I may give them a try for that as well. The whole process simply couldn't have been easier.

Now onto getting my Beverly Hills application submitted. I need to have that one mailed by the end of this week. It shouldn't be too much trouble though. (knock on wood!)

Many of you have asked, "When will you find out whether you got in?" Well... they don't really tell you a specific date - for either show. But I promise to post when I do hear, either way. I so appreciate all of your support... it means the world.

Beep! Beep!

2006-07-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

Here's a picture that Steve snapped of "our" road runner. He comes to visit us a couple of times per week. As neighborhood birds go, he's impressively large. From what we can tell, he can't get a lot of lift under his wings, so he sort of just flutters up to the fence or the lowest tree branch. The rest of the time he just... yup, you guessed it... runs!

I found this image to be particularly fitting for today's blog since I have felt very much like a road runner these past few weeks. (Think of that purple bird from the Warner Bros. cartoon.) I can think of no better metaphor for the work involved in preparing to submit to my first show. My legs are spinning and spinning - so fast they are no longer discernible. I'm running, but I'm not yet able to fly. In the meantime, I'm barely escaping the coyote and the Acme explosive device!

But today I am happy to report that the Santa Barbara application is complete and was delivered to the post office on Saturday morning. It was such an odd and unexpected sense of satisfaction that registered as I walked back to the car. I may get accepted. I may not. But whatever happens, NO ONE can take away the work that I've done to get to this point. I don't merely dream of entering shows someday. Now I have. And the second time around will be easier. It's all in the baby steps... I'm telling you... even if they are baby road runner steps!

I Didn't Jump... yet...

2006-07-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

First off, thank you to everyone who wrote comments and emails in support of my endeavors. And thank you to everyone who sent positive energy my way. It DID help, I'm sure of it!

Yesterday was a test of my endurance. I photographed and I photographed. I worked outside in the heat from 7am 'til 4pm. How long is that? Nine hours?!?! Yup... in and out of the house... up and down the stairs... baking in the hot sun all the while. Of course, the landscaping people chose yesterday to work on the hill behind our house, so Bentley barked his head off the entire time. Then about 9am, they set up their massive and LOUD woodchipper in the cul-de-sac, about 20 yards away, and proceeded to operate it for the remainder of the day...

But I rephotographed EVERY piece of art I own and ALL of them turned out beautifully (after a slight learning curve with the new camera). All of the pictures are printed and ready to be sorted into the album. Steve helped me create a CD ROM last night with the images I want to use for slides. Apparently, there's only one place in all of Los Angeles that can do same-day-turnaround for slides. (I know because I called them all.) And it's ironic that the place coming to our rescue is a little lab Steve has access to on the lot at Warner Bros. We're paying for it dearly, though.

But with a little luck, and some more work on my part in completing the application, I should have everything ready to be postmarked by Saturday. Good thing, since that's the deadline. This application is for an art show in Santa Barbara. Did I mention that? I feel a little scrambled, as you might have noticed...

One good thing that came out of all of this struggle is that I located this site called IPrintFromHome. Their prices are EXTREMELY reasonable compared with what I was quoted for in-person service yesterday. And their turnaround is decent. I have a little more time to spare getting slides made for the Beverly Hills application (due July 31), so I'm going to give them a try. The best part is that I won't have to create a CD ROM and drive it over to a store. Then drive back to pick the slides up. Don't you just love the digital age? I mean, I HATE computers and I don't understand a lot of technology, but when it works... it really works.

I May Very Well Jump Off A Bridge...

2006-07-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

So... do you remember how we toiled in the hot summer sun for hours to photograph my art? And do you recall how during the entire first 50 pictures or so, the film was not advancing?

Well... we got the slides back yesterday... 78 in all. Of those, how many would you guess turned out? 70?... 68?.... Maybe 55?... Nope! ... Two. Now do you understand why I may no longer be with you? I have an application for a show due Saturday that requires four. And one due next week which requires eight. ARGH!

Picture this: Steve gets home with the slides last night after work. We look at them at approx. 5 pm and realize it's a disaster. Some are all white; some are all black; some are great except they have a big black fuzzy strip through the top, bottom, or middle. And two are fabulous. And this is over two rolls of film!

We make some calls and do some deductive reasoning. It seems that the problem lies in Steve's VERY old camera. So we run to Costco to see what they have. We are looking for a camera with a Single Reflex Lens (or SLR). This type of lens will give you WYSIWYG (what you see is what you get) in the viewfinder. The above pic. was taken with our other cheap digital camera. It does not have SLR. You can see that the edges look rather trapezoidal and sortof fisheyed. A camera with SLR will not do this. You move close so that your artwork fills the frame. That's how you know it's straight and level. Then you pull back slightly so that just a little of the black dubateen shows around the edges. Then shoot. (The black looks great though, doesn't it? Thank God something worked.)

Anyway, back to Costco.... they didn't have any SLR cameras, so we raced across town to Best Buy. We were there for about an hour, talking to various people. After another hefty "investment," we walked away with a brand new Canon EOS Digital Camera. This is wonderful for several reasons. It has the SLR lens. It's digital - so no more buying slide film and keeping it in the fridge, worrying if it's advancing, fumbling with rewinding, and then taking it to be developed. No more taking 3-6 pictures of each piece of art in order to have enough slides to submit. Now we'll take one picture and multiples can be made from that master. AND we can see if it's good BEFORE we send it in to be developed. Plus, my digital pictures online will be better with the SLR lens as well (no fisheye, as I mentioned). It is an 8-megapixel camera, which means the clarity will be better as well. It has auto-focus and auto-exposure. We may invest in a better lens sometime in the future, but for now this one will be fine.

AND we walked away with another new toy - it's a PictureMate Personal Photo Lab. I can print actual pictures from the new SLR camera. I've had soooo many issues with getting pictures ordered this week online... you wouldn't believe it if I told you. The PictureMate prints these AMAZING quality photos, without ever needing the computer. They are fade-resistant and archival. You can rotate, resize, crop, zoom-in, make them sepia or b&w - it's amazing. Truly. And no more ordering 4 shots each of 15 booth photos to see which ones are good and make sure I have enough. I can print as needed. And best of all, no shipping! You buy the ink and the photo paper all in one convenient package. The ink is guaranteed to print all 100 photos that come in the package, so no wondering when you may run out. The ink/photo paper was only $28 - or 2 for $10 off. Not bad, if you knew what I've spent in ordering photos online and in shipping recently.

Okay, I know this is a lot of info. But I'm excited... and stressed. And many of you have expressed an interest in this. So now we only need to re-shoot my entire inventory and have slides made same-day... all so that I can get this application in the mail by Saturday. The temps. are supposed to be 105 or higher for the next week. And Steve's at work, so I'm on my own for this round. Please, please... if you're reading this, send me your good vibes! I need all the help I can get...

Praising Organization

2006-07-12T05:39:00.000-07:00

I came up with this fantastic solution yesterday to a problem I've been struggling with... ("Fantastic," if I do say so myself!)

As you know, I've been taking slides of much of my finished artwork. Those are for art show and/or gallery submissions. I've been taking digital pictures of everything. The plan was to create a blank form on the computer whereby I could later fill in all the specs. for a given piece (inventory #, title, size, medium, etc.). Then I would tape the photo to the bottom of the form, insert the paper into a plastic sleeve, and have a record of everything in a 3-ring binder.

Well, yesterday I was at Target and came across these awesome leather photo albums for only $12.99. Each one houses 200 pictures. But the best part is that there is a little 2" paper border next to each photo which says "Notes" followed by about 6 lines for writing. How perfect is this!?!? My new-and-improved plan is to place each picture in it's sleeve and then include the inventory #, the title and the price next to each photo. Everything else (meaning all the other info.) I already have on an excel spreadsheet anyway; I can cross-reference it when needed. If something has sold, I think I will place a red circle sticker next to that entry. This way, I can bring my entire inventory with me wherever I go in a very portable, professional presentation. People who may be interested in commission work can look at what I've done previously and may no longer have in my possession. And I can bring my entire body of work to people who may be interested but unable to attend a show.

Isn't this fab?!?! I thought so... (It's the little things, I'm telling ya'...)

Shooting My Art

2006-07-11T11:05:00.000-07:00

I thought you might appreciate a pic. of our professional photography set-up. (Emphasis on "professional" here!) But seriously, this set-up comes compliments of Robert Burridge. This is his technique, verbatim. And if it's good enough for him, it's good enough for me.

That's Steve doing the photography with our camera on a tripod, loaded with slide film. I can't tell you the type of camera right now, but it's got one of those big, telescoping, detachable lenses. The sun is morning, at our backs, to which the shadows will attest. The board is just plywood covered with a fabric called dubateen. This is the type of fabric the studios use to create black space in the background of any shot that needs it. As a result, this fabric photographs as a beautiful dead black in the background of our shots. The art is the only thing visible (I hope!).

As you can see, this particular piece of artwork is quite small (4"x 5"), but the board is big enough to accommodate my larger works as well. So far, this setup has worked like a dream. The first two rolls of slide film went to the developer today, so I'll be sure to report back when I have the real proof in-hand.

The Fruits of Summer

2006-07-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

I was making a fresh peach cobbler a few days ago. I saw all these juicy beauties in the bowl, and thought they were just too sumptuous not to snap a picture of. The colors in real life were even better. (And the cobbler was delicious, too - warm with a scoop of french vanilla ice cream melting down over the top... yum!) This is the epitome of summer for me.

In other summer news, the heat continues. Normally, the 108-degree temperatures don't bug me that much. But it seems that Steve and I have spent a tremendous amount of time working outside this summer. I much prefer 108 when I can sit quietly inside our air-conditioned home.

Art-wise, I got some good work done on my latest batch of canvases. I'm hoping to have them finished up within the next two weeks. I've also got to get everything together for my application for the Beverly Hills "Affaire in the Gardens" art show. The booth photos are complete, but I still need to take a few more slides (once I finish the work still in-progress) and get the film developed. That deadline is approaching faster than I'd like. Where does the time go?!?!

New Look

2006-07-07T06:32:00.000-07:00

Well... I've spent some time tweaking the look of my blog. (It hasn't been easy!) But at least it's a little more personalized now. I may go back to working on it some more when my schedule frees up. By the looks of things, that may be sometime in late 2009. But don't hold your breath.

Here's a pic. of a piece I just created in my latest batch of canvases. I really love this one. The quote is my own. It reads: "intentionally stopped... or stalled by fate? tick tock". For me, this piece speaks of the urgency I feel we all must have with regard to our lives. If we wait for tomorrow... if we wait for everything to be perfect... it will be too late. Tomorrow is promised to no one.

This theme pervades much of my work (and my life for that matter). As a result, I make use of a lot of visual references to the measurement of time - clocks, sequential numbers, yardsticks, etc. In addition, the lone car on that snowy road just raises so many questions... Where was it headed? Why is it stopped in the cold? Who is the passenger waiting? And where is the driver? The knobs on the lower left are from the Rose Bowl flea market. I love the way they ground the collage as well as serve to reference an opening of sorts...

I haven't titled this piece yet as I'm waiting for some words to really move me. But thank you for allowing me to share it with you.

Kristin Steiner's class at Fiberfest

2006-07-06T06:01:00.000-07:00

These are some photos of the fabric triptych I made in Kristin Steiner's class at Fiberfest. The book is entitled "Becoming". It's very personal to me as it is meant to capture my evolution as an artist. I wish the beadwork and hand-sewing came through better in the photographs, but you get the general idea.

If you ever get the opportunity to take a class from Kristin, do! She is just one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my entire life. Her energy and spirit are unparalleled. She has a way of making you feel so special and so safe - just within the first 5 minutes of meeting her! And her work is out-of-this-world! It just speaks of days and wishes gone by.

Kristin is teaching a 3-day workshop with her partner in North Carolina. The project is called "Believe in Yourself". (Scroll down Kristin's workshop page, and you'll find it.) This fabric box is actually three separate boxes nested within one another. Each box unfolds to lay flat like a cross. It's just ingenious in it's construction, really. I've seen this box first-hand, and it's fabulous! If there were any way I could make it to North Carolina, I would be there with bells on. I'm afraid it's just not in the cards for me right now, however. (A girl can't do everything!)

In other news, remember those two large canvases I was working madly to finish? Well, they had to be scrapped. I had a glimmer of hope in the middle there and thought I had turned them around. But when I dripped red paint all over them in an effort to do something to save them and it turned out looking like a major ER trauma, I knew it was over. Then I spilled the same blood-red paint right next to our back door. There's a huge "splat" mark that looks like a very large bird collided with the glass. Then there are many splatters outward to further tell the story of this imaginary bird's untimely demise. Steve thinks the whole effect is really funny. I just think it's sortof morbid. In any event, our back patio is becoming a work of art in and of itself. There's paint of every color of the rainbow out there now.

As for the canvases? Well, I re-gessoed them yesterday. It took three coats to cover all of the dreadfulness. But now they're fresh and clean and ready to go again. I guess not every creation can be a masterpiece. I find comfort in that. I'm only human, right?!?!

Oh, and note to self: don't "drip" with red paint any more....

We Did It!!!

2006-07-05T07:35:00.000-07:00

Here are my completed booth photographs. When you look at the pictures, perhaps it might appear rather effortless. But let me give you some sort of an idea as to how this weekend progressed...

I woke Steve at 5:30 am on Sunday morning. I knew we needed to get going in order to beat the heat. We set up our blackout board and sorted through all the art I have created, both from this year and last. Around 7:30 am, we were ready to begin photographing. It was already 85 degrees. The problem was that the sun was still too low and was shining directly onto my art, thereby creating an unimaginable glare. So we waited...

Around 9:30 or so, the sun was high enough in the sky to begin. Now, each shot involving the slide film needed to be set up from scratch every time. This meant readjusting the tripod, the focus, and the framing. Steve did that. Then I followed up with digital pictures. After about an hour and a half, I'm certain the temperature had climbed to above 100 degrees. My shirt was literally soaked in sweat. I asked Steve how many pictures were on the roll of film. It seemed like we'd used quite a few. He said 36. I did some simple math: 3 slides per art piece times 16 pieces so far... hmmm... I questioned him. He said they often gave you extra pictures on the roll. But 20+ extra? I don't think so.

Turns out the film had never advanced! Ugh! Now, I couldn't be angry with Steve - he's wonderful enough to give up his holiday to help me on this adventure. I swallowed hard while the beads of sweat blurred my vision. We reloaded and started over. I think we finished around noon in a withered, melted heap.

Monday and Tuesday were better, however. Oh my God! I LOVE that tent!! Thank you MaryBeth!!! A million times!! The setup was relatively easy. It took us a couple of hours, but I'm sure it will get faster when we don't have to read the directions so meticulously. It's sturdy and beautiful and the mesh panel system in simply ingenious! This was by far one of the best investments I've ever made. I'm so, so happy. In fact, I love my tent so much I was tempted to sleep in it that night. Steve thought the bed was a better idea, so I acquiesced.

Tuesday was spent hanging all my art and getting the booth shots. Then we also had pick-up photography on about 14 other pieces we just couldn't get to on Sunday. Let me tell you, having my art in that booth was a sobering experience. If I thought I was busy before, I realize now that "I ain't seen nothin' yet!" I've really got to pick up the pace. No more phone calls or errands or chores when I'm supposed to be working. I need to produce!

All in all, it was a spectacular weekend. Steve and I worked our butts off, for sure. We're both sorta glad to be starting our "normal" work weeks today as we both feel it will be tons easier! But I couldn't be happier, and I feel like I've crested a HUGE mountain. Rather than just being freaked out at the prospect of entering a show, I feel more comfortable with my presentation and more confident as an artist. I realize that the whole booth-thing will be an evolution, much like my art, but man, does it feel good to have rounded that first corner!

100+ Degrees...

2006-06-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

Woah, it's hot here. Every day since I got home from Washington, it has been well into the 100's. Yesterday was 106, according to my thermometer... in the shade! And the forecast predicts more of the same.

Normally this wouldn't bother me, but this weekend Steve and I have A LOT of work to do outside. You see, I've created 43 pieces of art for sale this year so far. (Yea, me!) ALL of it needs to be photographed digitally as well as with slide film. Then we need to setup my brand new art fair tent for the first time. (We all know that's going to take some doing.) And then we need to put all of my art in the tent and photograph it! That's a lot of work. I'm concerned not only about us melting, but my art melting as well.

The plan is to start quietly at 6am (hopefully the neighbors won't notice). Then as soon as the sun crests the mountain behind my house and we have some decent light, we'll start taking the pictures. I figure we'll need to stop around 9 am or so. (10 am at the absolute latest!) Luckily, due to the holiday, we'll have Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday to get this all completed.

As for today, I'm working to finish up my final three canvases that I have in progress. They're getting there. But a trip to the grocery store and UPS derailed my morning slightly. Why must the baggers slam your produce around like they have a personal vendetta against it? I used to be a bagger, and I NEVER treated people's groceries like that! But I digress...

Tonight is the 8th anniversary of the night Steve proposed to me. He takes me back to the same restaurant - Inn of the Seventh Ray - every year. It's a very spiritual place and all of their food is listed in order of "esoteric vibration." It's just delicious... organic ingredients always are. "Our" table is perched atop the bank of this little creek. Twinkle lights fill the trees and more than once we've seen a coyote wander down by the stream to drink. Then when the meal is over, I make him propose to me all over again. Can you tell Steve is a wonderful man to participate in this so earnestly? Each year gets better than the last. I love you, honey.

Workin' Away...

2006-06-29T13:34:00.000-07:00

This is a photo of the wrist cuff I made in Keely Barham's class at Fiberfest. Oh my gosh, what fun that was! The best part was that the project was actually doable in the timespan of one class! I can see myself making many more of these. It would be easy to do the shell part and then bring that along on a trip to do all of the embellishing. The interior is nothing more than fun foam. Pretty cool, huh?

I've been varnishing and finishing all of the canvases I've been working on. The biggest two aren't quite to that step yet, but I did make some major progress today. There's nothing better than really hating what you're doing and then somehow, miraculously, being able to turn it all around. That's where I'm at now. Hopefully now that I'm inspired I can wrap these up in the next day or two. I'd really like to begin work on another "batch" sometime next week.

A Nuclear Art Disaster

2006-06-28T11:17:00.000-07:00

Why does creating art thereby require one to simultaneously create the world's biggest mess? I'm not sure why the two must travel hand-in-hand, but they do.

I'm really trying to be diligent about unpacking this time... really, I am. I've made it my goal to finish putting *ALL* of my art supplies, including the little odds and ends I don't know what to do with, away by the end of this week. So far, I've been on pace to reach this goal.

Today I decided I needed to finish my fabric triptych from Kristin Steiner's class. I'm 75 percent there, mind you. It wouldn't seem that I would need to create a nuclear art explosion to accomplish this. But explode I have. Ribbons and fibers are tumbling out of their jars and onto the floor. Floss, thread, and an assortment of needles now grace three separate rooms. The sewing maching, iron, ironing board, and rotary cutting tools are all out. Drawers are open. Various patterned papers are strewn about the floor. Embellishments are piled here and there. Buttons are sprinkled over everything. Fabrics are pouring out of their formerly neat little cabinets. I think somewhere down deep is the notion that I must *SEE* everything I own in order to create. Where did this idea come from?

And I won't even go into the paint mess that is happening simultaneously in several other parts of the house. If the disarray is any sort of an indicator of the quality of the art, then at least I'm well on my way to being wonderful!

Building a Bridge

2006-06-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

So often when I leave to go out of town, I race around trying to finish EVERYTHING before I give myself permission to depart. By "everything" I mean laundry, cleaning, watering plants, yard work, pool maintenance, packing, shopping, any other errand I can possibly think of, arranging pet care, making sure Steve has food options other than take-out, and completing every in-progress art project I may have going.

This time, as I believe I may have mentioned, not all of it got done. In particular, I didn't finish all of the canvases that I had started. And you know... I think I may have stumbled onto a new and improved way of working.

Yesterday was my first day back and it's often tremendously rough for me. I have all the household stuff to catch up on in addition to backed up computer work as well as my art. Usually, it's too much for me to stare at a blank canvas and be inspired to create something wonderful when I have the weight of my "to do" bearing down on me. But having something halfway finished allowed me to just pick up where I left off. No stress. No pressure. No fear. I knew right where I was and where I had intended to go. A little paint here, a little sanding there, and I'm back in the game. It wasn't hard, and it wasn't a struggle. It was actually an enjoyable first day back. Imagine that!

Fun at the Fest

2006-06-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

Fiberfest was simply AWESOME! I had three wonderful classes with Suz Simanaitis, Kristin Steiner, and Keely Barham. All were inspiring. I still need to finish a few things up, but I'm promising pictures and more details shortly.

Perhaps even more inspiring than those fantastic classes though was being surrounded by so many creative individuals. The work that everyone produced was out of this world! And I'm speaking about work folks did in their classes and work folks did just for fun - in their rooms, in the hallways, and in the asylum. There is so much to be gained from opening yourself to this sort of energy. I feel like I'm failing miserably, trying to put this into words. Let me have another go...

At retreats like Fiberfest, I finally feel like I am home. I have found my tribe. I can allow the truest essence of me to burst forth, without fear of judgment or scrutiny. It is a moment in time where art and the individual become one. My heart is open and filled to brimming with the vibration of an energy that can only come from a collective creativity. It is a feeling like no other.
Now, it's quite possible that this sounds too "new-agey" and "out there" for you. But if you "get" what I'm trying to say, you must be a member of my tribe. Thanks for taking the time to journey with me...

Fiberfest, Here I Come!

2006-06-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

I'm excitedly counting down the hours now until I leave for Fiberfest. Tomorrow morning, my plane will take me to Issaquah, WA where I will spend5 fun-filled, art-immersed days. I just can't wait!

My bags are all packed save for a few toiletries. Unbelievably, I've managed to fit all of my clothes AND all of my art supplies into the smaller of our two suitcases. Summer helps lighten the clothing load. And fabric/fiber helps lighten the art load. It seems sewing-related things are much more condensed than paper, paint, and glue. I want to pat myself on the back here as well, since I've been tremendously organized with prepping for classes. I've spent some real time thinking about each project in advance. And I think I've packed only what I will actually use. Each class has its own ziplock bag full of the related supplies and nothing more. We'll see how this approach works for me as opposed to my normal "grab-everything-within-sight-because-I-just-may-need-the-kitchen-sink" way of packing.

I'm also anxious to meet all the wonderful women from the Mini Art Quilt swap that I hosted recently. These 22 people are truly an amazing bunch. I just can't wait to spend some time with them in person. The photo (above) shows the quilt I made for this swap. Each player created 5 or 6 quilts and I assembled them all into vertical wall hangings. I'm really pleased with the way they turned out, and if I can believe what I read, everyone else is too!

As for my canvases, well... I'm proud to say that I finished 9 out of the 12. (And by finished I mean that the main artwork is complete. I still need to paint the sides and varnish when I get home.) I should finish one more today... that will leave just two (the biggest two, of course) to work on when I get back. That's fine by me though. Having something midway done will serve as a bridge to get me back into the studio after this break. Sometimes when I have to start a new piece from scratch after a break, the initial going is a little rough.

I'll see you all in blog-land again when I return next week!

Blogger Help Anyone?

2006-06-19T07:03:00.000-07:00

Okay... if you're reading this, you know I'm new to blogging.

So many of you have written such wonderfully supportive comments about my "What Dreams May Come" box. My gosh, I can't tell you how they have lifted me up and made me smile.

I want to respond to your comments and questions. I know I can just publicly say what I have to say in my next blog entry, but I would much rather respond personally via email or something similar. For the life of me, I just can't figure out how to do that. So I'm sending out a plea for help... Comments, anyone?

A Collector of Quotes

2006-06-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

I fancy myself a collector of quotes. I really enjoy using words and text in my art. Not only is the written word visually appealing to me on the basis of shape, but I feel that it helps me bring my viewer even that much further into my own world. I have a notebook full of my favorite quotes by famous and not-so-famous people alike. I will often spend hours searching the internet or one of my many books for just the right words to add to my piece. Sometimes this process can be frustrating and unproductive. Not to mention, I lose myself in the search and precious hours go by that could otherwise be spent painting.

Then it occurred to me: I am an artist. By definition, that make me creative. Don't I have any fresh and riveting comments to make about my own art?!? That's when I felt the walls of my "tunnel vision" begin to crumble. Perhaps it's not as news-worthy as when the Berlin Wall came crashing down, but it's just as exciting to me! I can create my own poetry... imagine that!

And I'm here to report that that's just what I did... and am doing. It's so incredibly freeing! And I'm much more apt to convey my precise feelings for a given piece than any stranger ever could. No tag line... no searching... no making a fit. The words just flow and I am free to move on to the next thing. Sometimes the obvious is so hard to see. But thank heaven when we do.

What Dreams May Come

2006-06-17T04:46:00.000-07:00

This is a special little box I created recently. It's entitled "What Dreams May Come". The construction is fairly complex as there are several door and drawer variations involving a glass slide, wood, chipboard, and a mint tin. I created this box as a way to honor my innermost hopes and dreams. The mint tin houses slips of paper on which I record the whispers of my heart. Whichever desire is most pressing gets rolled up and inserted in my magic bottle. I firmly believe that there is tremendous power in the simple task of writing and creating art about my dreams. It paves the way for them to become reality.

Unfortunately, this box was not accepted as a class for Artfest 2007. I received that news in yesterday's mail. But you know, I'm okay with that... strangely enough. Sure, the exposure and experience would have been terrific. But there will be other venues to submit to. I believe in this project, and I know it will find a home.

I'm discovering a surprising sense of peace and calm in just accepting what is and trusting that this is for the best. (And if you know me at all, you know this is an often-elusive attitude for me to achieve!) It's been difficult for me these past few months to find chunks of time to devote to my canvases. My focus has been scattered far and wide. Perhaps this is the Universe's way of giving me permission to let the extraneous stuff fall away and really zero in on what's most important. Perhaps it is my answer to what dreams may come...

Random Thoughts (possibly from a random mind?)

2006-06-16T05:52:00.000-07:00

First and most importantly, Maynard is doing well!! The vet and her nurse took turns caring for him at home. Then earlier this week, he was strong enough to be moved to a Wildlife Rescue. He is now in an enclosed area with other birds, learning how to fly. Once he's good to go, he'll be released into the wild. The vet's assistant told me the chances for his survival are excellent. Isn't that just the BEST news!?!? Yea for Maynard!

Secondly, I've received a lot of questions about the Trimline tent. I'll try to address some of them here. Mostly, people are interested in knowing why I chose to purchase this setup as opposed to anything else. Okay, here goes...

Many, many artists (at least in the shows we've cased) have chosen to go with those carpeted panels. I agree they look tremendously professional. But I was concerned about inclimate weather. And I was also turned off by their weight and their size. Steve and I simply don't have anywhere to store them in our home. Also, on the day of the show, I would have room to bring my carpeted panels in our SUV, but no art!

I did consider the EZ-Up tent and other models. For starters, the EZ-UP has this huge metal framework on the underside, which didn't appeal to me. Not to mention, rain and wind could still whip through since there is no closure between the tent and your walls.

Trimline seemed to suit all of our needs in that the walls of the tent zip closed with the top. The Mesh Panel system gives you the ability to hang your art without being heavy or bulky. In the research I have done, I am getting much more for my money - the complete, high-quality setup with a lower shipping cost - than I would have spent buying all the components individually.

It is my understanding that most art shows have equipment for rent. That would certainly solve the storage and schlepping issue. But I feel that this is an investment for me, and I may as well put my $$ toward owning my setup rather than giving it away by renting. It is my hope that in time, the setup will pay for itself. Moreover, I won't have to struggle on the day of the show as I will be able to practice and get familiar with my tent and display at home.

That being said, this is only ONE approach. It is what works for me. And I don't even have the tent yet. I will post more when I receive it. If anyone does talk to the Trimline people though, tell them I sent you! (www.flourish.com)

Lastly, I got some terrific work done yesterday in the studio and hope today will be just as productive. Don't you just love it when things are "gellin'" and moving along smoothly?!?! I had to make my coffee extra early this morning because I needed to get some papers dyed and drying... how sad is that? My art's needs come before my own... Oh well, at least I'm dedicated.

Retreating

2006-06-15T06:20:00.000-07:00

I read this article recently in my Art Calendar magazine entitled "A Paradise for Artists". The article talks about this art colony spread over 17 acres of Costa Rica's central valley jungle. They accept 7 artists at a time, generally for stays of 1 month in length. They refer to the experience as a "residency" or a "colony". I call it a retreat. To me, it's a withdrawal from virtually everyone and everything in order to focus your entire being on the song in your heart.

Can you imagine anything better? I picture awaking early each morning to the caw of some tropical bird or other. The heat and humidity from the jungle would already be pressing in on me. But I wouldn't mind, as this would be the biggest concern I'd face. I would work madly in my studio all day... forgetting to eat... stopping only in a crumpled heap of exhaustion when the light began to fade. Nature and all her beauty would drive me to paint my best and most passionate work. For that brief moment in time and space, I would be one with my art.

Okay... maybe this is a bit of a fantasy, but so what? That's my ideal retreat anyway. If you're interested in learning more about The Julia and David White Art Colony, you can visit their website: www.forjuliaanddavid.org.

Blissfully Painting All Day!

2006-06-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was pure heaven. I painted all day! I got so much done.... I'm currently working on 12 different canvases right now - all of varying sizes. These are all, of course, for my art fair "inventory". I hope to have them nearly completed by next week, when I leave for Fiberfest. We'll see... I can only do my best.

The wonderful thing about painting so many at once is that you can easily shift from one to the next while something dries. I swear, I need a revolving door out to my patio 'cuz I'm constantly going in and out to lay things in the warm summer sun. (I'm not sure how anyone in high humidity gets by as an artist!) I know one of these days a bird is going to fly by and leave me a not-so-pleasant critique. But maybe I can work it in as texture. Hmmm....

In other news, I pre-ordered Beryl Taylor's "Mixed Media Explorations" from Quilting Arts (see pic.) It arrived yesterday. All I can say is: "OH MY GOD!" It is gorgeous and luscious and juicy! I've only glanced at the pictures, but I can tell you, the photography is fantastic. I've been a fan of her work for a long time, and I'm so happy to have this book. If you are into art quilting or fabric art journaling at all, you will be inspired by Beryl. I'm pleased to see that there are many examples of her work, along with step-by-step instruction for various stitches and projects. If you're interested in ordering it, here's the link: http://quiltingartsllc.com/qamag/mme.html.

A Leap of Faith

2006-06-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

Well... I finally did it. I made my first *HUGE* investment into this thing I do called art. (Mind you, the tens of thousands of dollars I've already spent on every art supply imaginable doesn't count.) What did I do, you ask? I bought a booth setup for art fairs.

Steve and I have done a TON of research over the past few weeks. We've attended art fairs and scrutinized various displays. We've reviewed setups online. And I've been asking everyone I can possibly think of for help.

The bottom line is this: I am committed to making this work. And Steve is 100 percent behind me. I didn't want to get some mickey-mouse setup with an eye on getting the "real thing" further down the road. If I'm going to do this, I want to do it right. I respect myself and my art at least that much.

So, we decided to go with a Trimline tent and Mesh Panel display system by a company found here: www.flourish.com. Jim helped me figure out everything that I need. They're the nicest people, by the way, which made this purchase much more palatable. If any of you ever end up purchasing from them, please tell them that I sent you! Jim says I should have the entire shipment in about a week and a half. This is a good thing because I need to have photos of my booth setup in order to apply to the Beverly Hills art show in July.

I certainly would not have had the gumption to go forth with this if it weren't for one very generous soul: MaryBeth Shaw. She responded to a plea for help I made on one of my Yahoo Groups. She didn't know me from Adam, but she has patiently helped me, referred me, encouraged me, and answered every single one of my questions. I can't express my gratitude enough. Her website is: www.mbshaw.com. I'm going to post a link to her blog to the right, under "links". She certainly has fast become an inspiration.

Now that the order has been placed and the money spent, I feel a curious sense of calm and relief. Yes, I'm still scared. But I feel like I've taken one step further on this journey of mine...

2006-06-12T13:54:00.000-07:00

Rose Bowl Flea Market

Steve and I went to Pasadena's Rose Bowl Flea Market on Sunday. I am looking for a free-standing shelf on which to place my paints and brushes. No luck with the shelf, but I did come away with some cool treasures!

The opera glasses were totally unexpected. I don't know if I like the glasses or the case better. When the seller agreed to $20, I couldn't say no. I thought they'd be wonderful in an assemblage.

I found a lot of different, old bottles. One of them is still half-filled with pills! (Don't worry... I'm not going to try them!) There are some buttons which might be terrific at Fiberfest. And there's also some old door and drawer hardware, which I plan to use in my mixed media canvas work. I bought 12 old photos, too, which aren't in this picture. Lastly, there's a great old box with the best patina ever. It has a sweet floral painting on top. It's one of the earlier boxes produced by a company in Italy called Borghese. No matter where I am, if there's a Borghese box, I will pick it up. This is the second one I've purchased.

All in all it was a fantastic day. I'm anxious to get back painting, however. I thought today would be productive, but I've spent *ALL* day at various doctor's offices. Ugh. Tomorrow should be better.

2006-06-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

Well... here is my inaugural, virgin post to my brand-spankin' new blog! Please be patient with me while I figure everything out. (I'm slow with computers, but determined!)

This is Maynard. My husband Steve and I were walking our Welsh Corgi Bentley when we happened upon Maynard... all by himself in the middle of the street. Steve scooped him up and brought him to the sidewalk. We looked in all of the usual places for his nest and/or his mom. Nothing.

So we brought him home. Steve and I were able to feed him two worms. We made a little nest for him out of a box and some shredded papers. We kept him in the warm garage, away from our curious cats. I worried all through the night that he was too cold, too hungry, too thirsty, too lonely, etc.

In the morning I was able to find a vet across town who was willing to care for him until he's big enough to fly and healthy enough to be released into the wild again. Man, I miss him. I didn't do any art yesterday because of Maynard, but I think it was worth it. This picture is just the best. Could he be any cuter?!?!? I want to do an art piece honoring Maynard.

Anyway, in case you don't know me already, my name is Shari Beaubien. I am a full-time, self-taught, mixed-media artist. My website is: www.sharibeaubien.com.

I'd like this blog to be about my daily trials and tribulations as an artist. I hope that by reaching out, perhaps I can share a bit of my journey with those that are interested. I know that I have gained valuable wisdom and oftentimes tremendous inspiration through reading other people's stories. I hope I can return the favor. At the very least, maybe you'll find my adventures entertaining...

Here's to the launch!